Let's talk about being a fat girl in a slim woman's world... I know not all men want a skinny girl or so they say. When the beautiful slim woman is prized above all else and it is tossed in your face from a young age it makes you wonder what in the hell is going on. Nothing against beautiful slim women really. The world is geared to fit that idea also. Ever walk into a store and see all the pretty outfits that you love.. start looking for sizes... if you are lucky you may see an XL in there... but you already knew that is all you'd find before you walked in there, because you've played this game before. Now I admit in recent years things have gotten better for plus-size women. More and more stores are getting a clue big girls gotta dress too.. money is to be made there. Let's talk about men now.. I have had men tell me I love bigger women.. here, on other sites, and in real life... I have to chuckle.. is it because you are horny and will screw anything that sits still. I ask because it seems to me they will tell you what they think you want to hear but when it comes to more lol well can you say ghost? LOL, Maybe it's just not a man issue but a woman issue as well. Maybe men feed off the vibe we put out about ourselves. We are not good enough, pretty enough, smart enough. Maybe some of us even knowing that put out a vibe of desperation. We have to break this loop going on in our brains. Start believing we are worth it. We are smart enough, pretty enough. We will not be defined by our size but by our hearts. I do believe we all have a purpose in this world and we can choose to live this life out in the spotlight making a difference or shut and closed up guarding our hearts. I am guilty of shutting out the world for all the wrong reasons. I always seem to choose the wrong men. They seem great on the outside but on the inside hallow. I think I have been doing it wrong all these years. I have been looking for the romance novel definition of what real love err lust is all about. I have been waiting to be swept off my feet and be adored and wanted. Desired and longed for.. just like the vixens in the stories. Instead, I should have been putting myself out there being who I want to be. Your approval is neither asked nor required. So while I will never be a raving beauty I am worth the time and effort. This vixen is gonna start living the life she wants. Enjoy what comes her way and let the chips fall where they may. I'm still the same lusty wench I have always been just gonna stop beating myself up for not being society's idea of the perfect desirable woman. |