The skype cam-to-cam "event" that we had to cancel about a week and a half ago is now on. I'm pretty excited, but scared too. I've never done this before, and when I tested the camera, the clarity is really good...lots of pixels and great color. That's good and bad... I'll be able to see him really well, but he'll see me, too. Yes, he's seen pictures of me (lots of them LOL) and I even made a short video for him, but live chat is something else altogether. On the plus side, it will be much easier talking to a person instead of a camera...I felt so silly talking to the camera when I made my video, so I was way more self-conscious than I would have been if I had a "live" audience of one.
He's done some very cool photoshop stuff with pictures of both of us together, and I know that requires him to blow up the photos of me to almost life size. I send him my "raw and unretouched" photos - he says he likes them better that way, but maybe it's just because my photo editing skills are so rudimentary.
He sees all my flaws in bigger than life size...I cringe when I think about it, so I just don't think about it (avoidance has its merits)! OR, I just tell myself that because he's an artist, he's doing a job, and that's all it is. He concentrates on getting the details right (if those are wrong, the total effect is "off"
and looks at overall effect from a purely technical standpoint (is it or is it not realistic), or at least that's what I tell myself. In other words, it's a project, he wants to make it look good because it's his work, but there's no more emotional attachment to photos of me than to say, photos of people, places, or things that he's using to make a tourist brochure.
I know a little bit about photography - mainly, that lighting and angle are the keys to making a subject look good. I actually do think I'm fairly attractive if I have low/diffuse/warm lighting and the angle is right and I have a decent expression on my face, even without any photoshopping or other manipulations. AND I do think I look very good in clothes when my hair and makeup look decent (normally I wear very little makeup...too much bother most of the time).
And yes, I do have some vanity...I don't want to "look good for my age", I just want to "look good", no qualifiers necessary. I guess technically I am "middle aged", but I don't feel like it, and I think I could pass for 10 years younger than I am, based on my totally unscientific sampling of people on this site (unclothed) and people that I know in real life (clothed, thank God!)
So, I think when we start skypeing later, I'll wear SOMETHING...lingerie and some silky/sexy panties, maybe...gotta leave something to the imagination....I'll take it off if he asks (but he may not want to see me totally naked in HD, I dont know). I also have a few toys (vibrators) that I'll have with me, so if he wants to see that, I can show him... But heck, he may just want to talk about the weather and the economy (oh yeah, I AM being sarcastic now!), who knows?