Today the most people I've been in contact with is one. But later on I'll find myself in a situation, and I will feel something we have all felt at least once in our lives.
I'll be in a group, and I'll crack jokes, I'll have jokes cracked at me, I'll smile, I'll kid, I'll be kidded, I'll be charming, I'll be with good people having a good time and no matter all that, I will feel completely and utterly alone.
I can feel it. Right there in my stomach. I felt it last yesterday, I felt it growing like an omen of the next days to come, and quietly it whispered that there would be nothing I could do to stop it. Nothing I could do to prevent it from stealing a day or two of my life - if not more, it doesn't wish to spoil the surprise. I will have to just stand there, take it, and wait for it to pass.
Since yesterday, it's only become worse. I tried to feed it with friends and laughter before the xxxxx grew too large to handle, but it's hunger was far greater.
I tried to appease it by running myself into the ground, to zap my own energy and it's in an attempt to prevent it from having the fuel to grow anymore, but even my body bounced back fairly quickly, and it continued with a sinister chuckle.
In one last ditch effort, I fed it bacon - yes, bacon - well cooked, crispy, perfect(Well, maybe a little overcooked...) and still the void in my stomach is unfilled. There is nothing I can do. It's almost done growing, and I can't stop what is to come.
So today, I will laugh, I will tell jokes, I will smile, I will be charming, I will be me and I will be the lonely person in the room. |