i switched days today because i had a VA appointment. i needed med renewals as well as to meet my primary care psychiatrist. i was feeling pretty good this morning as i had a good nights sleep and such. i took a book with me as everyone knows, you spend quite a while actually waiting to see the doc and the VA is no exception. well as i am going down the elevator, it stopped on another floor to pick up another passenger and we exchanged pleasantries. she was suddenly a little quiet and reserved.....it was fairly early and i was a stranger, so i guess i could understand. well, as i am getting in my car and putting my book down, i suddenly realize the book i am reading. the title is "the strangler"...lmao...she was prolly petrified!!!!!!!! i guess she won't be talking to me anymore....lol. well, the appointment went well, my social worker is VERY helpful. she walked me down to medical records to get all my treatment records for my appeal. while we were in medical records, we asked if it would be possible to pull up my records for my treatment in NY, well, the lady said that the system to pull up remote records doesn't work most of the time......wtf.......its still the VA isn't it???? same computer system (i would hope). anyway, maybe i should play the lottery today as it actually worked. i will admit that i am torn as to whether i want to look at my records or not. i'mm a little afraid to see what a mess i really am...lol (as if i didn't already know). apparently i meet 3 out of the 4 criteria for PTSD. i have now been trying to track down a service organization (VFW, DAV, American Legion, etc) to help me with the appeal process. part of what they want is a statement of earnings and assests. i guess if you are able to make a living and have assets it means something...... all i really want is the recognition and assurance that i will be treated for this as needed for the rest of my life!!! maybe they think i plan on retiring on the 100 or so bucks that they will probably give me. aside from that, the rest of my day went well. i still have lost my desire to work out and such. the call of the beer got to me and i gave in. now that means i can't talk to my wife the rest of the night as she gets upset if i have had a few.
on another front....my doc was worried about side effects from the meds. it appears that in 50% of the people taking the med i am on, there is sexual dysfunction....but don't worry, they can give a med to help with that...LMFAO!!!!!! so i decided that since i am physically separated from my wife, i should have "the plumbing" checked occasionally! so any females in the silver spring, md area who would care to help me check it....er say.....twice a week or so, please let me know!!!!!!!lmao.....ok, once a week........er,, ok, once a month ffs!!!!! never mind, i will continue to do it myself i guess, but please continue to provide me with the inspiration for my checks
i hope you all have a great NN day. and also to those i will not see, have a great Labor Day weekend (sorry my canuck and brit friends
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