nguy0000's Blog - page 1

Been a long week and even longer time since I wrote in here. At least I can say that I am in a different place since my last entry and confident with where I'm at.

Now the wierd part: Things have changed in here. What is happnin and what did I miss?

That said, it's beer time. Gotta get a lil hoppy goodness going.

I offered lunch to my ex... an offer to drink alot of beer and a simple lunch. She considered it and countered with another idea... still involving beer drinking. We had a good moment together, talking about work stuffs and catching up a bit. It was casual and seemed plesant. I wish I could have lasted.. I wish there were a way to undo the last 5 months..

So my wife (divorce not final yet) is out on vacation. Doing some partyin with her family and took some spokane friends. But I miss the interaction, even if it sounds like she's pissed at me. Even if she's being selfish and dishonest. I still miss hearing something from her. I need that magic elixir that will help me forget her. What a long holiday week...

I saw promethius. I had no idea it was part of the Alien franchise! Nice scary movie for the weekend!

I was invited to a party ... along with... the dreaded ex. How comfortable is that? I played along that it was cool. Hell, she even told me about it. I'll just say, that it wasn't easy. As a matter of fact, the only easy part of the night was the beer driniking. Oh well, back to checking e-mail.

My ex and I have been invited to the same party. What's the protocol? Should one bow out? She will go for sure so now I must decide on what to do. Our separation is so fresh we are technically not considered ex's yet. (on paper at least) Should I bring a date? That would be akward... maybe I should turn up the discomfort dial!

This week is looking better. A bit at least. It's stared out cold and rainy. Tomorrow will be colder... much like the ex. Although being away from the wife is an emotional downer.. fact of the matter is, I still get horny. So I did some tributes today. It doesn't put life into perspecitve, but it does get my cock in my hand. At least I got some fun work done on my free time.

Phone argument. Get a lawyer. Pay a lawyer. Text argument. Look for alternative income. Go to friends memorial. End of week.

I hope next week is better.

I went to a movie last night. It was good, 21 Jump Street. I laughed my ass off the whole time. It was a good escape from current troubles and worries. Another single excursion is in the works.

These are difficult and troubling times for me. I have been heartbroken in the past but fixed in the end. Now I feel simply broken. Not sure how to get out of this funk. Intamacy has been on a down hill sloap for years. I've lost my connection and my focus. I'm worried for the path I'm on.... it's now untested and I'm unsure how to proceed. Sometimes life is simply shitty. NN is a nice fantasy outlet... but cannot replace real companionship. Can anyone relate?