Mr_Vein's blog post - Stupid mental health...

Thursday, July 27, 2023, 12:49:30 AM

So tomorrow (well, later today) I'm travelling to a wedding. The journey involves a bus ride from home to a railway station. Then a train to another station. Then another train to another station. Then another train to another station. Then one last train to the last station.

It's the kind of journey that would give anybody agita (lil nod to the Sopranos...) but I'm already feeling anxiety about the anxiety it will cause!

Apparently feeling anxiety about anxiety is fairly common. But bloody hell! I've realised tonight it's a major part of my anxiety on the late shift at work. I'm feeling anxious about the anxiety before I've even left the house!

It's a wedding. It should be a fun occasion! I mean, apart from the fact it's already cost me over 300 quid... 😬 But I just can't shake it!

I vaguely remember a time when I was almost fearless. I'd jump into any social occasion or situation without a moment's thought. But just like I get wobbly on a set of steps at work now, somehow age brings with it certain insecurities.

To quote the Australian comedian Jim Jefferies, "I'm on antidepressants, but I drink, so I'm not on antidepressants..." But I am taking my meds with me.

There's no real reason for saying all this other than, the advice on one website was "share your concerns with an unbiased party". So, guess what - you're all my unbiased party! 😂

Anyway, it's unlikely I'll take any pics while I'm there but you never know...

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MrsTrellis on 27-Jul-23 6:17:41

That would give me wobbles too. I've always been uncomfortable in social situations and coped by acting the part, but I'm much less sociable now. Good luck, hope the journey is hitch-less and you have a ball at the wedding.

EmuLater on 27-Jul-23 6:54:45

I wouldn't relish such a journey myself. Good luck and I hope you have a great time.

Dignitea on 27-Jul-23 7:43:37

I use to do a very similar journey, but the smile on the person waiting at the other end, made it, all worthwhile. But I get where you are coming from, I broke it down into sections, rather, than one long journey.

ZippyMilf on 27-Jul-23 10:29:31

Anxiety about anxiety - I feel this everyday. Everyone tells me to buck up or just deal - as if that helps. Counting my breaths helps me calm it down. Maybe it could help you as well.
Hope the trip goes smoothly and the wedding is lovely!

Mr_Vein on 27-Jul-23 23:19:55

The trip was very far from smooth, but I made it. Now it seems like I might be able to get a lift home, so that's even better! 😁

MellieK on 28-Jul-23 7:35:24

I think that kind of trip would give anyone the wobbles! Glad you made it, looking forward to hearing about the antics.