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Julieannfringe I wish I could be one of your ex's.
I miss the BDSM, or at least the intense level she let me take it to. My current wife has opened up a lot though. Shes just more reserved, she doesnt like pain the way my ex does. Thats hard for a guy who learned to enjoy giving it for most of his adult life. I would love to have that type of sex again, but its just not worth the misery she brings everyone around her. Now I get anal less often but have an amazing marriage and someone whos stable.
But it's not a good idea to go trying to track down an ex.
Some years ago I was nostalgic for an ex girlfriend and after some years I finally tracked her down. What I learned was that she had been dead for ten years and nobody - not her family, not my friends - nobody told me a thing. She died a horrible death from lung cancer that everyone thought was the flu until it was too late to do anything.
Had I known, I would have wanted to spend time with her just to help keep her from being alone on that path. Of course, she had lots of friends who did exactly that for her; I just wasn't on the list of people anyone remembered as ever giving a shit. And maybe that's as it should have been, because had I bothered to check in on her every now and again, I certainly would have learned of her illness. So in the end I can't complain; it's my own doing.
It's not a good feeling to find out just how long you've been really, really out of the same circle that once revolved around you, and then to realize that you own that isolation.