hottlavender's blog post - popping in....and out?

i just wanted to pop in and vent a little....i need your honest opinion on something....should i get implants done? it sucks to have this whole breast cancer issue to deal with....i used to have full 38DDs and my back used to kill me! as my treatment course, i originally decided upon a latissimus dorsi flap as my reconstruction...unfortunately i also had radiation therapy that made my left breast "firmer" .....my right breast is supple somewhat and gaining weight like the rest of me, but my left breast is driving me insane....i guess it's an appointment back with my plastic surgeon or my shrink?! originally i wasn't interested in the implants because of the "feel" and maintenance issues of it all, but surely being "unwedded" or single, makes it extremely difficult to compete with the broads out there....i know it boils down to vanity but the somewhat insecurity bothers me........aghhhhhhh i need my shrink again!