lostinmich's blog post - A Secret....

You ever have a secret about your life that just seems to eat away at you? It is a good secret and something you have been doing that your so happy about and enjoy but know that if you told your friends it would scare the shit out of them?

NN is my secret... I love this place and I love how everyone is so open minded. I have had several candid conversations with poeple on here that GET my kinks! I have had a chance to express some of my wants and desires with people and not worry about them judgeing me for them.

I also have been exploring a side of my sexuality that i never thought, in a million years, I would ever have the chance to test. I have admited it to my wife that i am Bi-curious and she kinda knew all along. This would never be something I could tell my friends but on here i have had the chance to play with the idea, and to speak with like minded guys and even do a bit of light cybering to gauge my desires.

Now I know cyber-sex is nothing like acutally doing "it" but it has given me the chance to safely explorer the possiblties and how i would feel about them. Which has lead me to the desire to actually trying it.

I am thankful that i have such a supportive and amazing wife who has talked about letting me experience this stuff or helping me to experience this. Even going so far as expressing interest in joining in. (what women would not want to guys to pleasure her all night..right? hehe)

I guess i kinda went off track a bit. What I am trying to say that some days I get this overwhelming urge to tell all my friends that "my smoking hot, sexy, amazing wife is sucking my cock online and guys are drooling over it!" and in the same breath "that I would love to be sucking a cock of my own at the same time." But i know it would be met with a momment of OMG followed with a WTF, and finally alot of judgement.

I dont think I could handle that. So I let this secret lay in the back of my mind with so many others and I resist the urge, everytime my friends talk about sex to pull up NN and show them just how crazy good my sex life is.

Am I the only one out there who holds this place a secret? I am sure i am not, but my wife has told a couple of her female friends who find it amazingly erotic! Maybe i just need to find the right time and way to tell my friends.

Maybe I should just keep it locked away forever...

~LiM

--Thank you two speical friends on here for listening without judgement and letting me talk without fear, you have no idea what it means to me.--