To add to my normal I think I going to make it this year my heal it taking a a bad toll I try to stay positive I want to hide my scared feeling and I know exactly why I don't want people to treat me differently because of it I feel alone and full house it that possible yes it is in my case it very possible I don't feel comfortable anymore anywhere I feel like trash but try to hang by the day at night I feel cold and and hot I can explain it I don't sweat but feel burning my mind it full of disappointment and I thinking of most of the things I gat the I don't want I lost the I want back but it too late now to amen so I try to go on as much as I can thank readings this if you are or feel the same way reach if you can wield you can

As I was trying to do my jod I was helping a woman get some icecream I think she knew but she was wearing ripped pants in the pussy and ass area I gat nice long look i wanted her stay longer and maybe like bend over so I can have a nicer look next time I tell her if she need more help to just ask me for anything she want anything and wink at her

Why people think the know me why people insist the are someone great they don't have a bucking club of my live but still I there mop boy the to go guy but I the last pick last chance in everything the make be good opportunity why that being your man that being the GOAT now aperaly now I turn my back now I bad guy of you stupid movie were you the big fat fucking hero go suck it and big black one too see you gag on that shit now it my turn to fuck the world in the ass it gat me the back I bend over now you see the bad guy of the movie I make sure I get a oscar for it and the I the one the people call on the time they need the big hit it on the scream

The long overdue I don't think you see me not the real me what a I'm you see someone I see nothing you see a man I can find it in me you see a comedian I can't laugh a good person I see the bad I do a live I really feel dead you may ask now them what are you ? I answer a probability it something they may cost or not something to happen I look my self I feel like that you see in the mirrors and love what you see I do too but I wish I didn't because it probable it something you see but I lost sight of it no mirror to if it have smoke it like hide and seek but the only one playing it you why you play for recognition admiration or rather greedy things I play other to fine that they lost I play to see you the real you not a shadow bright lights will destroy you but if you show it let you step out your shadow stop you smoking mirrors be you show yourself as you are enjoy your view went you look a yourself now tell me who your are

In the hands of God but in the tongue of the devil feeling the grand of hunted seeing  the Grace of the bless in between of everyone line of the good and bad which side hold my present or my past because the future it my but control by my actions  be the man of good or the soul in hell it my chooses but the drag of everyone help to my decision hope the see the my mind hurt and my soul cry in fear in way you never underestimate persons the hold the all that and more the see the pain and prefer it the some run to away for it see my eyes dry but inside the wet see mouth glued but it want to move see me here I want to be with you but you hide the fact you hide the word you hide the feeling the hurt the laugh the heal and the sadness the make you cry join me in tears of joy or sadness my shoulder it ther it your in the same place

In my live I see nothing I feel no emotion but no big deal you not in my live no one is part of my story it no event the one around me they feel more distended the most people it that funny my world it more lonely the most my eyes the most boring sign but of course you can distended your self for me that ok it more then ok it safety right all people feel safe in all different way my it no hurting to feel safe it more stupidity but it like I said safety now my pain in more silent like deadly silence I hide thing very well alway be good a hide and go seek well I should saw it more I grow the more difficult my pain it of being different way different to see a problem really not see it there to the simple things making no sense but difficult one just come to mind to remembering all not important but having not club of why the one the are important get lost in your mind yes the that my brain funny thing I understand commant but don't see the perspective in ther onders like the get lost to me and now my own little reality it falling and I really feel like the people around just see to feel like the problem don't matter to me it way different I take them to my heart like a sponge but most humans are self centered right I like to feel like that only 1 the the world it hold by my own hands but guess what I don't need that to much weights on me because I carried my what in my own hand with a lot of Pride even it if trash it why it that so bad like otres said a man trash it a otres treasure my so my live it no more the very deep pain most sick silent most time I feel like fool jester intertenig otres for the own sadness to turn in little joy for the moment otres I feel like I the perfect knight the come in the need of otres need feel like adult wit no right path and day like kid with a lot of hope and dreams but today I content my every most prestigious possession my live it like it don't matter to me today my live it my trash and it feel like most I try to find the the it going to get better in this day I don't think that going to happen no happiness in my path it most fill now and forever with only discord and anger like most people think I a good for nothing why try to wash there eyes there true can't be changed the effect of only seeing the bad in otres swallow there heat so it there no poit in my favor and I negative tryin to be a positive that can only be if you are to change my nature And I don't think that can happen do to what you just said there a thing you like to Secret but my it my now your it more like out but sorry the the world need to rotate in your favor my just not so I lerd to deal with that guess with not for each other after all you till don't let's go of them thing the make you more then otres I have nothing more that it what I can offer that it my essent so no thick way to scar me it just I already scar you don't see them like every egocentric person I don't need that I think that way but if I star to I hope people see it not me make that out it was you if you can see the mirrors around you you are lost in your self if you see to much of you your a narcissistic if you don't see your self well your depress if you help otre you no help to your self if you help your self you selfish now this it the hard reality I see can you see it no tell me you like to change guess what I like that too just as bad I just try more to my self them for other but never forget it for them and me that it me that my brain that how I feel inside I bet I not alone ? Or more hope I not either way it fine it not your reality right

Ok it like every other day I really like and enjoy big girl but I like to have fun with a more then 1 but my correct partner it not up for it so I like to 2 big nice juicy girl the like to enjoy a 1 time deal the be enjoy and I be there sex slave for a few hours i like to be all ther want to be tide donw as they get me ready tease me slowly tell how much I want it show what i like to have as they play with there big tits nice ass and sucualt juicy pussy so if you fit there fit the bill and have a friend the like to share it your same fit hit a boy up really hard if you want as much as I do and like it just as hard and rough tell me I love to hear that and of course tell a friend you and her can get very lucky

I can't sleep can't see to enjoy my time I want to scrape off and feel free really free like went a dird get free for a cage hi fly far and high let's the wind take it a hope to see familiar place call home a real home not a cage

Ok it been about few months but I just was chock to see my boss in no work clothes I done my self in like very the moment when you realize something is just not right I went look I was working and I decided to take a peek out I saw this hot woman for the back I just went wow that it very sexy I see my other coworkers approach this woman and then she turned I saw her face it was my boss I was like wait no way I as like almost fantasizing having her walk in an telling I saw you looking at me the other day what were you loking my ass right it was very tight the legging I hat that fat my ass look amazing in those right and believe me that sad for look amazing in those now how the fuck I goning to spend like 2 or 4 hours with her without see her ass after that I gat no idea but it she notice and like getting look at i going be very happy at work for the first time in like ever

Ok well by now I really want to fine fun adult fun to be exact so I try out the local strip club good place but to on the point right after I went to buy somethings I need but I ball needed to use the bathroom so I headed to it but as I was pull out my cock in a rush some girl walk in and just started to look at my cock I was hard but she just look as I piss it was nice right went I finished she ask were the woman bathroom I toll her right next nice eyes she walk out like stun but right before she left she said thanx not for the view but for the complement not there it was bad it was good the she stop and went like u know what I just walk out and said sorry I toll her anytime it see u around just not in here right she smile and walk out I guess it was 1 in a 10000 this going bad that day that I gat 1 nice time