Things I didn't do this winter: - skiing, and I missed it so much - going for long walks through a wintery forest - going swimming in the munipicial indoor swimming pool - Jacuzzi at Elsie's and running around in the snowy garden when it is 10° below freezing - regular visits from my darker Sister Hyde side - having explicit sexual fantasies of five guys cumming over me at the same time - masturbating regularly in the early morning in bed - thinking of Maria, the only woman I could have spent a life with