Alpina's blog post - Really Awkward, indeed

Thanks, guys, for your interest - sometimes I am rather doubtful whether my emotinal roller-coaster rides are of any interest to anybody - but I try to be as accurate as possible, even if it's not easy to tell all in a few words.

Phillip and I were in the living-room while Angelika was nowhere to be seen. How I would have loved to be very close to him, but under the circumstances I fended off all his attempts at coming too close. But I could read in his eyes what he would have liked doing with me most, if I hadn't been so reluctant.

After some time, Angelika knocked at the door and without opening it called that dinner was ready in some minutes. And I must say, it was delicious, together with my Barolo. Odd was that we were eating alone; I felt pretty uneasy about the whole business while Phillip acted as if the two of us were totally alone in his flat.

At the end of the meal, after Angelika had taken everything out to the kitchen and was presumably washing up, I just had to ask Phillip what this was all about. Who was Angelika and what was her position in his household? Phillip said he had waited for this question and he would explain everything - he thought I would understand - being such a liberal - minded and open person.

Oh, oh, I thought to myself - and I was ready for the worst. How could I ever have thought that winning this special man was easy?