Alpina's blog post - What is this a sign of?

Phillip has just left. For the first time we spent a night in my bed without having sex. We were tired after last night's church concert he has to write about and after a glass of wine and some cheese we fell asleep immediately - and this morning we got up and had breakfast after just a few good morning kisses. What is this a sign of? Taking things for granted already?

I am sorry that I disappointed some people with my story about Angelika. In reality it only took about an hour. But I put it down in this way to show what went on in my mind during that time and what I learnt about myself. I hate people playing mindgames with me, but I must say Phillip was right: besides indifference and possessiveness, there is much, much more in a relationship.

Am I disappointed because she was not his sex slave and wanted me to join a lecherous game? - No, not at all. Life is just not structured that way - not here in our catholic alpine republic at least, whatever goes on in your fantasies, guys. (And in mine ...)

What did I not write about in the last few days? That snow has fallen and now glitters in the sunshine. That I was sittting in the jacuzzi during the snowfall with my friends - watching the flakes dissolve in the hot water - and that afterwards we were running through the garden naked and lying down in the snow. That by chance I met the woman who had observed me in the spa, that we had coffee together and found out we had common interests. That "Small Island" by Andrea Levy is by far the best book I have read for months. Oh, Life.