Alpina's blog post - So Happy

When I got up this morning - my heart was so wide. I was alone - Phillip had left before seven, and Angelika had gone with him - so I didn't have to hurry. I looked out of the window - they sun was about to come from behind the clouds and it was relatively warm. The last remainders of the snow around the house had melted in the nightly rains.

I had to leave the house then and breathe some fresh air. So I put on my hiking boots and started to walk up the slope hehind out village, up to a spot with a lone fir tree and a wooden bench from when you can overlook the local area and the mountainous horizon. I sat there for a time.

Is there anyone as fortunate as me? I could not but think. I looked down to my wonderful, big house and my garden in the distance. All this belonged to me - I had inherited it when my parents died so suddenly in a fateful car crash - and I also got quite a large sum of money with it. A safe place to live, and the means to live on comfortably. And I have an academic degree, a wonderful profession, a good, well-paid job. I have many friends. I am healthy and feel well. And I have - of new - a lover who is ever so close to my heart.

It is sad that there are so many people who cannot be as fortunate as I am - whose lives are hard, who are ill and poor - who experience no love. I feel with them when I think of them, I donate money to charity reguarly though I know it's just a drop in the ocean. But does it mean I must be unhappy with them?

No - this I refuse to do, no matter if you think this is unfair. I am HAPPY - and it's the best feeling in the world.