Alpina's blog post - Thanks Flcamfan

I was never pregnant in my life, Flcamfan, so I cannot really tell ... I think I am just worried, or call it terrified, and maybe I share this feeling way too much here in my blog ... but why only write when the sun shines? Still, I enjoyed your considerate comment immensely, thanks very much.

Maybe I would not be a bad mother. I had a vision when I woke up today of me sitting in the sun-drenched garden of a big white building. My legs were covered with a blanket, I was too frail or too old to walk. And suddenly a beautiful, energetic, young woman with a radiant smile came walking towards me across the lawn and said: "Mother ..."

My cat is at the clinic, I took her this morning .... she is asleep now and being examined. May she not suffer and her waking up be gentle.

Phillip is in Linz again until tomorrow. Last time when he was there, he slept with a woman he always sleeps with when he is in Linz. It's like going for a meal to your favourite restaurant when you come to a town, he says. It's just sex, not love, he says. It could never interfere with what we have, he says.

Enjoy your meal, Phillip ... I have something to chew myself here ...