New to this blogging thing so bear with me...
When I first came here I came battered and a little rejected. The last site I was on was a cold hard place. A place full of judgment and backstabbing. I just felt betrayed and let down by people I had known for over a year. I understand it's a chat site and what do you expect... and toughen up buttercup it's life.. and even who gives a fuck you don't know these people. And you would be right to say any and every one of them. However, that is not the person I am. I am too trusting and too honest and I get hurt. When someone hurts me I tend to turn it inward. Talking to people who are supposed to be my friends does not make me feel better as it does not affect them in the least so they do not give a shit. Understandably so or what grown-up logic would tell you. When in my heart I wanna scream STOP you're my friend and they hurt me. You should be mad at them as much as I am. I am so a 10-year-old girl deep inside. I know this about myself I admit.
When I walked through the doors here it felt so new and so nice. I saw and felt no judgment. I could be who I wanted and no one cared. I loved that about this place and I thought how wonderful it was. I started to meet people and make friends and have been most happy here. We are all here for our own reasons and that is enough. I have to tell you just so you know I hate hurting people and I hate feeling like I am rude to people... but at times it is hard to be in chat because when you are slammed with PM's and chatting with people it can get overwhelming. I have this need to respond to someone who talks to me. I can not help it. I know I miss a lot and if you have said something to me and I did not respond most likely that is the reason.
One thing I have learned here is that there are gonna be jerks everywhere you go even here. People who will hurt you, ghost you, lie to your face. Never understood why you cannot just be a freaking grown-up and be honest. Maybe that is my age coming through. LOL Yes, I am an old lady a kinky crazy old lady. I am here to have a good time. Meet some new people and find a few playmates. Nothing more. I have no grand designs on anyone and want to enjoy the freedom of play with whomever I want. Quite simple isn't it?
I have been MIA for a while not that anyone cares. I had a series of foot surgeries that took a toll on me and really got my normal upbeat self down in the dumps. Being away did cost me someone I thought was a valid friend. LOL, Opps guess not. Will I ever learn? I am blessed to say it is finished and I am good again. Well... lol I will be once I am over this nasty cold and bronchitis. Just putting it out there as a fair warning.. trouble is on her way back. LOL Hope you enjoyed the peace. Peace to you and let's party. T