In the past I have, like most people on here, posted pictures that hide my flaws. I have posed in ways that make me look my best, and put my body in its best light. The problem is that my body is nowhere near perfect and I no longer really care what people think about me. I care what I think about me, and I would like my body to change. I've wanted it to for a long time now.

As a result of all this pondering, I am going to post a series of pictures that shows my body how I see it. Pictures that accent my flaws instead of hiding them. Don't we all see our imperfections as a blinding ray of light?

Then I am going to exercise. This is where my plan gets a little hazy. I want to have a fit body. My plan? Riding a bicycle and hula hooping LOL. I can definitely use some advice in this area.

There is another thing I am going to do, too, but I will wait to tell you until you see some of my imperfections.

When I feel good about the way I look again, I will post a "before & after" picture. I hope it will look impressive

So I haven't had a boyfriend in a year and a half, haven't had sex in 5 months or so. I'm very picky, I don't like to give a guy the wrong idea, and I'm too honest for my own good. And to be honest, I haven't really been looking.

Now I'm thinking maybe I should just have a one night stand (or two or three) with a younger guy. I'm thinking an 18-20 year old. Maybe I can find out what it's like to be the "older woman".

Besides, there are some things my vibrator just can't do.

Been really busy lately, especially with school. Next week is midterms. Wish me luck!

And I got deodorant on the kitchen floor, lol!

This is a lot harder than I remember! Maybe it was just easier with that old webcam than my wonderful digicam?

I have tattoos, and I love my tattoos, but as we all know they are a source of identification. Most of us, myself included, would prefer not to be identified. However, the last time I was here I didn't edit my tattoos, and this time I'm thinking about it. I need to make a decision soon because I'm getting the itch to take some pics.

So how does one blur a tattoo (or face)? I really don't want to be leaving white boxes.

So here I am, checking out this place again. I'm surprised at how much it's changed, and surprised at how much it's stayed the same.

My profile picture is one of my old ones, hoping to jog a few memories. When I finally post new ones you'll find that time has not stood still for me either.

I'm looking forward to what I might find here.