So I posted my first nude ever last night. I did so because within the last year I have developed a desire to be seen nude, which I think originated from my wonderful sex life with my girlfriend. She is amazing. She's so smart, and positive, and encouraging that she really has helped me open up. (And she is literally the hottest thing I've ever seen.)

I have always found women of all shapes, sizes, races, ethnicities, etc. to be utterly, ridiculously beautiful. So much so that, sometimes I feel guilty for feeling like I'm objectifying them when that is truly never my intent. I certainly appreciate everything about a person... but physical beauty hits hard and I can't help it. And for the most part, I don't really enjoy traditional porn because it always seems like the woman isn't really enjoying it and doesn't really want to be there. The types of porn that I enjoy are amateur couples porn because both people want to be there and are in to it, not just working, and boudoir photography. LOVE boudoir images because I think such art truly brings out a woman's confidence, which is so fucking hot.

I want to have the same impact on other people - primarily women just because I'm straight, but I'll always appreciate positive attention from men as well. I'm just not able to truly reciprocate because I'm just not attracted to men in the same way. I'm concerned that I would be perceived as creepy and gross, though, for having this desire. I understand that a purpose of this site is to celebrate the more erotic side of ourselves, which our societies can artificially stifle so much. Also, it's also my belief that women in general are less visually stimulated than men. Now the reality is probably that it's more of a person by person distinction as opposed to just blanket male vs female. But what I really want is to feel like I am having the same impact on others that they have on me because the impact they have on me is so awesome, it's difficult to describe.

Anyway, where do I go from here? I always say to my friends that "We'll know where we're going when we get there" and I suppose that's true here as well. Would love your thoughts! Thank you for reading!