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Dagny1964's blog post - afraid of getting naked
| Thursday, February 3, 2011, 5:21:46 PM |
It's been a little while since I wrote anything. Heck, it's been a few months since I've even BEEN here. Anyway, I am still talking to the sexy man I met on this site, more than a year ago. We talk on the phone multiple times a week, and we've skyped a bunch of times. We were going to get together last March, but he didn't want to do it, which did hurt my feelings, I have to admit. Here's the problem - he is incredibly edibly sexy, even though he's old enough to be my dad. He has a great voice - smooth and creamy, and hearing him whisper my name as he cums inside of me would be absolute heaven. He keeps asking for more pics, and wants to skype more than we do. So what's the problem?? Well, he is in incredible physical shape. I look pretty decent in clothes, but naked, not so much. I've had 3 kids, and my belly is a little flabby. My thighs have always been a little heavy. My skin is pretty white, especially this time of year. I've been avoiding skyping with him because I feel fat and unattractive. He probably thinks I've lost interest, but that's the furthest thing from the truth. What I need, and I feel like such a needy person for admitting this, is for a man to tell me how sexy and attractive I am, and how much I turn him on. Not fakey compliments either - that's even worse than nothing at all. I wish that I KNEW he still thought I was attractive. In my head, I think he still finds me sexy, because I havent changed in a year (no drastic weight gain or change in appearance). BUT in my heart, emotionally, I need to HEAR it on a regular basis. I need him to tell me that I am sexy and smart and desirable and that he wants ME for me, not just someone to fuck. (He could have that any time he wants, even though he denies it.) Anyway, I wish I could get comfortable in my own skin. Usually I am a pretty self confident person, but looking at myself in the mirror naked is hard...I can't imagine anyone thinking that I am attractive and sexy, with all the good looking younger women out there. |
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