That first walk back is always the worst, but managed to walk for just over a hour and so over a mile as well, I never even went the easy route planned but changed it a little as I walked, but i do know my limits now.

Today I would like to try and get out again, forecast is not the best looking, but I saw a nice little macro subject inside a fence post, that I would like to get a photograph off.

Just realised that one week today is Christmas Day, not planned what me and mum will be having, the days for massive meals is over, one because I hate to see waste, but mainly because I watch, what I eat.


Fungi, has been what I have been taking pictures off mostly, mainly stacked images, this one is made up of the best bits from 30 pictures, I use a programme called Helicon Focus to do this and it works well, a lot quicker than, when I used Photoshop.

The perv in me, wonders all the options, you could have with a waterdrop on a womans nipple.

I am always one for doing a little experiment, I was trying one out on my Flickr , When I post a picture there, I usually just add to 3 groups, this time I added to all 14 groups, just to see if I got more interaction. The answer is no. , which I am very happy about. Bit like my blog, I just post what I want, what I am shooting at the time, going forward I know it going to be mainly macro type images, I get my pleasure out of these. I think I have my own little competition to see, how not to get noticed on social media.

I got asked why I never post any pictures on one off my villages facebook groups, people would love to see them, thing is I have never gotten involved with anything where I have lived for close to 60yrs.

My focus just now is getting my energy levels back, not walked much at all, still feel it after just walking down to the shops and back, but each day now is a little better, keep thinking of going for a longer walk in the afternoon, but I listen to my body more, than my head. got the route planned not even a mile long, decided this afternoon,, will report back.


For the first try at this type of image, I was happy with it. I know to do it better, I should have cut the flower off, set it up inside and worked from there.

I was going to blog about nipples today and if I have a type of woman, that attracts me . I pretty much had the basics of the blog in my head, but then my train of thought just drifted as I looked out at another dreich winter morning here.

I was lucky in the fact that I always seemed to attract woman who really enjoyed making love, never dull or boring, Julie once said to me, that it seems we are weird, she had been talking to one of her friends and her friend was say she was happy with a quickie, Julie said yes,, a quickie is nice, but then when she said her idea of a quickie was a hour lol. not quite what her friend meant.

Julies said once nips and lips,, when i see one poster on here, she always reminds that yes, it is what like.

3 weeks of illness now, a record for me, it keeps hitting me in bouts, hoping that the last bout was Wednesday , never watched as much TV, watched the whole series of the Jackal in one night, was around 3 am, I got to sleep and woke again at my usual 4amish time
Last night I watched Kin I think I watched 5 out of the 6 in that first series.

I hope by midweek, that I can get out for a wander, those withdrawal symptoms are kicking in now. Today will clean the camera and all the lenses, get them all ready for future adventures.


We never get much of winter conditions here, but I do keep hoping for a really nice snow day.

In the future I know, that I will reach for my camera more and more, it gets me through the bad days, like nothing else. Been close to 4 weeks since, I have taken anything new, long time for me, had planned in the future to have a still life set up, where no matter the weather, I could just find something and play around, kind of looking forward to this.

I think tomorrow, will try and get out, just into the garden and see, what I can find.



I have a file of things like this textures, i see people adding another image over a texture and blending them in, just something that I will give a try.

I just take and post what I like, never post for the algorithms or what is popular. people jump through such hoops, to get noticed, me I think I do the opposite.

I found an old file on a hard drive of pictures I took of me in the woods, was a nice spot to just get naked.

It kind of led to a memory of where me and Julie had bought a cam corder, yes first thing we did was make a porno, watching it back and she looks at me and say I really am noisy, the two of us just burst out laughing, we did end up with a little collection, we did even take some travel videos.

Too think how easy it is now, flip out the phone and pretty much go, can only imagine the adventures we would have had with a modern phone..

I am facing my biggest fear my only fear in life really,, losing my mum, yes know all about the circle of life and all that, my own death is not something that I have ever worried about.
She has been the only constant my whole life, the reason I keep on fighting and going, to just make sure she is ok, without her, I have no one, I have no one to talk too and no one to help me deal with all this, so writing these words on an adult site, is all I have. This is just my voice, having to get it out my head, just something else to learn to deal with.

Flying away.

It's just an illusion.