Dreamingof_U's blog post - sex

is something I have a very hard time going without...

my friends know that my brain gets this red haze and fog making it hard to function, back when I had a job and responsibilities that required real effort.

I need touch, intimacy and the sensuality if it all... I need the orgasms to clear away the fog.

My boyfriend isn't used to a woman like me. He had times between sex lasting easily 18 months. I can NOT fathom going without, let alone ever want to put the man I want through that kind of torture!!! Let alone myself... Hmmmm

nope. I cringe and get frustrated without it more than a week or two.

We often talk of sex, and hint of need and want. But still... while we don't live together... we go without regularly. Making up for lost time is something I need.

I get anxious after too long a time. And insecure, even though he's made it very clear I'm the only woman he wants.

I've had men lie, cheat, and walk away. I was married for over 25 years to the same man... a man who cheated on me, thought I had cheated on him multiple times... And, well... he fell in love over and over with other women, and let women flirt brazenly in front of me with him... rubbing against him... touching him in ways I only had touched him.... I was used to being unwanted, and abused.

But even with that, I wanted to be with the man I married.

I've been gratefully divorced for over 5 years now. and separated even longer.

I've learned what oral given to a woman feels like... and refuse to go without it, especially since every man I've been with wanted me to give him blow jobs.

I love giving pleasure and turning a man on by playing with myself... touching, moaning, enjoying orgasms on my own... or giving them when my craving for the flavor and moans is strong enough to make going down and deep throating necessary to me.

something about having a cock in hand, or licking a head, teasing a swirling tongue over shaft and head... and draining him dry...

even better, feeling stubble against my thigh... nose lips teeth, eye lashes, chin... all down there, where I can feel every move, feel every lick and nibble... carresses, and penetration... mmmmm, I love the feeling of a man between my legs. KNowing he becomes so engorged and ready that he cannot hold back any longer... plunging his hard cock deep inside me.

I've become dry compared to how I used to be... still... with enough teasing, touch, kisses, rubbing... and thrusting... mmmmmm, I still become amazingly wet... and slick. sooo, very slick that he slips easily in and out of my pussy... cumming deeply inside me, enough to gush and overflow....

God, how I miss daily sex.... maybe, one day...

maybe.