Dreamingof_U's blog post - I'm tired...

so tired....
it seems like I'm not getting ahead... but I know that I'm trying to do everything that I can, to make life work... to enjoy it.

I've got high anxiety these days... and not enough sex...
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I still need it as often as I can have it.

I'm not as wet as I once was... but I still get slick enough to slide a nice toy inside... but even better, the rare chance to slide a tick hard cock within my folds.

I wonder.... wonder if the man I'm seeing will ever really want to live with me... and actually follow through.

He's satisfied with what I see as so very little that I'm not sure I can be truly satisfied with what I HAVE knowing that he doesn't need to be together the way I do.


Ahh well.... such is life, right?

I stilll can say I'm grateful to be ALIVE.

I have a small monthly income.... and yes, I'll have to pay a portion back, but at least I've got something to help me pay bills, and some of the daily expenses.
I've known souls who lose their home and just about everything they own, in this same situation as mine.

My sister-in-law helps me still... with the $600 monthly cost of my medical coverage... without that medical insurance I couldn't have had the needed treatments for my cancer.


Oh, UPDATE: I've been discussing treatment in La Paz Mexico for almost a year, with one of the owners of the clinic/spa, who's a family friend. I still cannot afford passports or travel to get me and my daughter down there... but, for now, he's agreed to ship customized stem cell treatment to me for both my daughter's health issues, and mine.

I feel fortunate for that. stem cell treatments have helped several people lately, in so many ways.