*sigh*

sex isn't as fun as it used to be.

yes, really....

weird?

well, it's true.

sleepy me...
long, long weekend...

my body aches from lifting, carrying, and helping prep for the burn event on Saturday night...

My thoughts are jumbled...

think I'll take the opportunity to get some much needed rest, rather than stay up too late another night.

today, I had a message on my phone, from a friend... he asked me to call him back, saying he had something he was sure Id like... wanting me to call ASAP after I got off work... he was on his way to my place arrived just ahead of me, we talked the whole drive to my home... he informed me we would be just 20 minutes away from my place, and we needed to leave soon...

next thing I know we're in his car, then in the waiting room of KBER101 radio station... and he was signing for his prizes. Tickets for two for the Royal Blissmas concert, a movie and tickets for the live concert they were sharing on the air tonight... got to get our photo taken and posted on FB, on their page... and, well...
I love these guys. I know them personally.

Surprises like this are something special, and very rare.

Today I am adding the finishing touches to the drawing I' creating for theKid. Can't wait to ship it to that sweet friend of mine and I just hope that this is a wonderful Christmas for him and his family.

today, was our holiday party at work...
the food was forgettable, but the mood was lovely.

I went around to a few of the women I adore. and gave each a gentle hug to remind them that I love them.

I had time between my calls and during a couple breaks to work on my drawing a little more... it'll be finished very, very soon... I can't wait to post it here, in my blog for you all to see!

Today, my bird, Baby, pushed her door over and flew out to greet me... what a sweetie. She's been rubbing her little face against my cheek lovingly. Such a dear little friend she's turning out to be.

My daughter is out with her father... doing Christmas shopping for her new family. I am grateful that she loves her step mother.. and that she seems to at least tolerate if not adore her step brother. She has been such a lonely only child.

Today, when I opened my gmail account I found a sweet message from a man I've come to befriend here. Grateful tender tears trailed down my cheeks as I read his kind response to my heartbroken fears and attitude of sorrow.

He tenderly chided me for not loving myself enough, and pointed out both traits internally and externally that reason to believe that I deserve to hope for and have just as good a love with someone in my future as I had with my greatly missed Alex. I am thankful for friends and their love for me... I truly need you, my friends... and I want you to KNOW that.

Thank you for your kindness

touch me.... feel my heat, and know I want you...
need you, now, my love.

are you ready for my hunger?
Ready for my passion?

it is a blue white flame ready to consume you, me and everything in the room, tonight.

song from a group I love.. think I've shared it before... but, I enjoyed singing along and drawing with this in the background.

shhhhhhhh, I've got a secret...

I mean it....

REALLY?!!! Seriously, I need you to be quiet...

come on over here... I need to show you something...

ermmm, OKAy... so I forgot it. have to go find it... and then.... You're going to have to keep it a secret... okay?

It's for someone who's dear to me here... young guy, who's given so much to those he adores...
He commissioned a piece of artwork from me, for his family.

I'm giving him a gift, too. Making him something to match the dear thing he's doing for his mother.


Today, I don't know about you... but I was exhausted.
Worn out, from illness.

But I made it through my day of emails.

I made it home feeling okay.

And I got home to a message from a friend here, who's new to me. And, to four from my aunt, who's an employment specialist.
Oh, she did fabulous things to my resume! She tweaked and fixed it, and made it look great. Some hope now, for the future is in my hands, on a simple piece of paper. I have a little piece of hope, today.

the new line of business for my contract meant a change in shift... so glad the early hours of training are over, since I was really struggling with getting up before 5:00 a.m.

Now, it's just an hour earlier than my recent shift.

I love the relief from the calls. The stress level of handling emails is significantly lower and though I have to be on the phones for a day or two per week, it'll be easier for me to bear it, knowing it's only for a day at a time, not forever.

I'm still hoping to get a different job with a different company. While I'd prefer to avoid phone call centers, it's what I Do now... so I'll take it in stride.

still not quite ready to sleep... it's been a while since I've had anything to eat.. but I'm thinking that my vibrating pussy needs to be appeased more than my belly.

so I kick off my shoes, take off my rain splattered jacket and I raise a foot to pull my sock off of it, and then lift the other to bare it... wiggling my toes, I let out a sigh.

now the pleasure will begin... pulling my skin tight T shirt over my head, I pull it off and cast it into my hamper

*I'mma good girl, I put my dirty laundry where it belongs.*

sliding my jeans down off my hips, leaving them buttoned and zipped I step out of them and flop them into the growing pile in the hamper, too. Next, the bra gets unhooked and tossed into the open drawer... perfect throw, do I get three points for it?
I slide one hand down my chest, between my breasts, caressing lightly with fingertips to bring out the goosebumps on my smooth skin. Breasts, heavy and sagging after dancing to a few songs along with the crowd. One hand slides further down.. to bellybutton, then into the waistband of my panties... I lay on top of my covers.... and slide it farther, spread one leg to open lips to greet the questing finger as it skims over flesh...

slipping it upwards, to search for that lovely bud that is awaiting attention... then thumb digs in, to unsheath that pearly treasure, and tease it into thrumming... a fingertip explores the thick folds of soft velvety skin and delves deeper, in search of moisture... ahh, lusty sweetness begins to flow...

I NEED
thrusting hips upwards, I moan softly with pleasure.... I've hit the right spot. the pressure of my palm on my mound, thumb stroking clit and fingers becoming glossy, hot sticky and soaked... Frustration gives way to lusty aching and fingers fucking my swollen pussy. Tease me... I need touch.

I raise a finger to my lips and taste my flavor suck it clean.. then slide two back into my soft pink fleshy folds and in, to rub my cresting Gspot... rubbing, stroking it, sliding deeper... and then, my other hand finds two of my vibrators... fingertips are prunes now... it is time to use some of the tools in my drawer of toys, lubes and stimulating things. head back on my pillow, back arched, and thighs spread wide now... Imagining a lover between my legs touching, licking nibbling sucking... then sliding deep inside... lifting hips to thrust, and twist...
mmmmmm dream over, my orgasm pounding through me... deep strong, hard and spent...

was amazed by my friend... smashed, even before he'd started to play. I'm not sure what to think of him... not only was he absolutely blind drunk, but he's wasting away. Well, for HIM, anyway.

Shaking head.

I did win a Soulfly baseball cap in red white and blue. A guy's one... too big for my head. Oh well.