Can't understand why i'm writing this in here but have no one else to tell how I feel. Been feeling like shit for the past week or so now. Won't go into to many details but let's just say the wife has been ill for quite some time now. It's not her fault and she doesn't like feeling the way she does. We just aren't that close anymore but we still love each other very much and say that to each other everyday. But the closeness has gone and it hasn't been there for quite a while, I think that's why I started to come on here. At first yes it was a sexual thing but I have made some friends in here if you can understand that and I so enjoy chatting in here. But lately i've been feeling guilty about it like i'm cheating on her in some way. I haven't met anyone off this site but I must admit if the offer was there locally i'm not sure if I could resist. I just feel so lonely sometimes, or is that a typical selfish man thing. And that's when I start to feel guilty. So what do I do. Do I delete and not come on here anymore. Or do I just resist the temptation and carry on chatting to the people i've met on here. I don't know i'll have to think about that one. The one good thing though is that the wife has now agreed to get some help with her problems so maybe in the future there might be a light at the end of the tunnel. I hope so. |