Jucilucy's blog post - Monday Meltdown

Tuesday, August 4, 2009, 3:05:55 AM

I know it's been 9 months since I blogged here last...so in a way its like starting over...I'm back here because I needed to vent a bit today and there is nothing like an anonymous audience. I've recently had my daughter and grandkids here and Saturday they left for home (Ky) after a month long visit. Today my guts are just wrenching with the absence of our granddaughter. She was born here 2-1/2 yrs ago while her dad was on duty in Afghanistan. I had her here for almost 2 yrs and letting go again is almost as bad as the first time. I really feel empty inside and just needed to get it out. Maybe they stayed too long this time, maybe a shorter visit would be better. I've already decided that when daddy deploys again I can't let them move in here. I need to get on with my life. If they were in the area that would be ok...but not in this house...I can't do it again. Is that being selfish?...I'm viewing it more as self preservation...Thoughts are appreciated......

Love you all
Lucy

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plumprlvr on 4-Aug-09 4:43:52

Not being selfish. Self preservation is good. When thru this with the oldest grandkid. Bit different circumstances as daughter couldn't take care of herself let along a kid but I fully understand your feelings.

his_princess on 4-Aug-09 10:43:41

*hugs*

atv pilot on 4-Aug-09 19:09:49

That is a horrible situation, (like anyone needed to tell you that) would she consider moving closed to you, but not "in" with you. Maybe get an apt. near by, that way you can still have contact and get on with your life?