What did I ever do to deserve this? After all we have been through, all the times I believed his lies, turned a blind eye to his perversions, forgave his indiscretions, tried so hard to make our marriage work. Now I discover nothing has changed, he is as deceitful as ever, a liar and a cheat. How many others has he fooled with his fantasies? He has nearly finished me off this time, he might as well pull the trigger.

well after months of debate as to blog or not I have made a decision to do so. I am an innocent victim of this web site and the venom it spews I am sure some of you will recognize a portion of this name and in some ways I am speaking to you and in some ways speaking to those of you that may be doing the same thing to your spouses.My spouse became a member of this site many years ago without my knowledge(and to answer your question yes he was looking for something We were missing in Our marriage)He got caught up in the bashing and gnashing and probably became one of the best at it.After several years of a not so happy marriage due to this web site and other things we decided counseling was in order and I committed to make a marriage work long story short things were going along really great until this past holiday season we recieved a Christmas card in the mail from a member of this site who my spouse apparantly bashed enough that this person decided a personal vendetta was in order I percieved this card as a personal threat ( and still do) to my personal safty and authorities were contacted also at that time it came to my attention that my spouse (who had agreed during counseling) to be done in all ways shape and form with this site had indeed been lying to me all along(you can call me a fool for trusting but thats what I do)Our marriage is now irrevolkably destroyed as am I so to the person that sent the christmas card mission accomplished and to those that may be on this site without your spouses knowledge please step back and take a look at what you are doing if you put the effort into your marriage that you put into keeping this site a secret things may be diffrent. For those of you that are single or on here with your spouses knowledge carry on I bear no judgement just be aware that words can hurt and create actions that destroy and break hearts I am hoping that by putting this out there it will help with my healing I am not looking for sympathy or responses this is a purely selfish thing for me
God bless you all