LUNNA's blog post - Greetings from sunny and cold SoCal,,,,...

Sunday, April 5, 2009, 12:15:08 AM

well, cold for me anyways!

I'm having a great time with my baby, I missed him so damn much the last few months! but at the same time Im very sad, as sad as Ive never been before....

Yesterday I left my beautiful island for a 10 day vacation with my hunny...but today my beloved sister left our island forever...she moved to Spain with her husband and kids. I hope at some point she will come back on vacation...but that still aint enough for me. You see, she is my best friend in the world, we share a collective memory and a bond that will last a lifetime. I also love her children as if they were my own....so to say that my heart is shred to pieces is an understatement...

Never in my life have I been so sad or felt so empty... I know that she will be OK and that moving to Spain was the right decision for her and her family.....but I always imagined us growing old together and when the kinds came I dreamed about watching them grow up....well none of that is gonna happen....they will have a new life, a new marvelous life.....without me. Im mourning. Im mourning the loss of what could have been, the loss of dreams that wont come true....the loss of the purest love Ive ever felt, my niece. Maybe she is too young to remember me the next time I see her....to remember how I loved and cared for her since she was born...so many things run through my mind.

Im gonna miss having them around almost every day...and there's nothing that can replace them....its a feeling of emptyness that its gonna take a long time to go away.

So please dont tell me that everything is gonna be alright, cause it aint....I just gotta learn a way to accept this and move on, knowing that some dreams will never come true.

Kisses for all

LUNNA-in a bitter-sweet kinda mood

Comments

Others Have Said:

mdguy on 5-Apr-09 0:22:34

Nada sustituirá lo que tuviste... pero añandirás algo más que seas feliz otra vez. Lo haces ahorita. ¡Qué lo siento para tu melancolía y espero que disfrutes esta semana con Turkey! xxxx

JustHerMind on 5-Apr-09 0:33:43

There is nothing that can be done to replace a dream like that, LUNNA. I have had some lifelong dreams shattered beyond repair, too. I'm still hoping to at least find another dream to work toward, but the original dreams can never be displaced in significance. I hope you are able to find peace in your situation; I at least have been able to find that much.

depotguy on 5-Apr-09 1:02:25

Hunny you are so right. You just feel this way as long as you need to. Then you pick yourself up for a new normal. That precious girl needs a happy auntie to spoil her when she sees her (and I do too)

juicy on 5-Apr-09 4:24:55

ah auntie LUNNA you as well as I know there is no substitute for the hugs and cuddles but the web cam is the next best thing. Hug them, love them and kiss them virtually, they will never forget.

just_looking123 on 5-Apr-09 5:30:55

You are right, it will take some time to fill this emptiness. Being where you are now will help a little though. Though Spain is still on this planet. You won't be able to have them around that often anymore - true - but there will be ways to never loose touch. Plus - no distance can break this bond.

Tell jp to work a little harder to get the first ticket to visit them :P
Being an egoistical bitch - then you are closer to me as well and we could meet there ;)

Thinking of you with a virtual tight hug xxxxxxx

RayRay1958 on 5-Apr-09 14:44:43

Huggs to you girl, JP hold her extra tight.

imalilhothead on 5-Apr-09 15:21:42

so sorry to hear this lunna...sending hugs and stuff xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

By-the-Sea on 5-Apr-09 17:57:30

It's not cold....and yes the emptiness will get easier in time...
Cheer up it's baseball season sliding home....smile

duttyrockgal on 10-Apr-09 22:49:16

Hugzzzzzzzz.xx