Piss Slut Kat's blog post - An entry I never expected to make

So where to begin......seems like forever since I made an entry here...more than a month for sure. As I have said many times...life does have a way of getting in the way of living and that has been the case with us. We have had a full plate, actually overfull...like spilling on the table overfull. We teach two classes a week, and in addition have been going to school three other evenings. In our business we are seeing the most modern diesel equipment on the planet and its scary how quickly you can fall behind; next week we travel to Illinois for a week school for CAT just to learn new equipment in the pipeline. I have looked in on NN a few times, and even a few ppl have taken the time to ask where we have been, but Very Very few.....and this leads me to the purpose of taking time this morning to write.

Had a note from NN as our prem. membership will expire in a day or two, they offer a discount to renew....hard to believe its been a full year, more actually cuz before joining we posted a few photos and sorta tested the waters. I must say that we loved the warm and fuzzy feeling we got from NN in the beginning, it was so pleasant, so many special ppl, and to me I felt part of a community.....one that accepted us for who we are...and as we all know acceptance is right up there for ppl like us. I mean ya felt like ok, not everyone understands your lifestyle, not everyone agrees with ya but you were still part of a community....and it was nice.....and Verry special....I found a home. Yet as the year progressed cracks began to appear in the wall...chat for example.....totally out of control....constant cam requests, asl, asl asl, non members appearing from who knows where...ya...there were the regulars you could talk to but it was like Dodge City without Marshal Dillon...So then I started this blog and wow, not only sharing my daily life was fun I could also read others, the special ppl here...the “community”. To this day I feel that the blogs are the best feature on NN. I also went to the forum, and it was fun too...there you could banter back and forth and wow....express your feelings and share experiences...again like part of a “community”...it was nice.....way nice....Then the small cracks in the wall became much more...like an earthquake hit and destroyed all that had been built. Ya see I am a funny kinda gal....I have a belief system that demands I stand up for ppl who I consider friends....so when Charlie07 was bashed in a thread I jumped in full force and stood up for her...my values demand I do this...its ME.....an unconditional friend. And there I learned a lesson....one I knew I suppose, yet the lesson smacked me in the face. The “community” melted away....few took a stand and those that did were weak and stood back and allowed One person to toss insults such as “fuck you and the whore who gave you birth”.... there were others as well and I won’t bother to repeat them. What shocked me worse, and yes Hurt me deeply was how quickly this “person” was forgiven by the “community” or even worse how ppl I admired actually pointed a finger at me as the the one who baited him, others actually made excuses for his behavior. Here we had a person with two ID’s, a person who gains pleasure from hurt and loves the attention he gets from it Accepted by the “community” I felt part of. I still ask myself why....How can ppl be like this...a community with integrity would toss this person out ....yet not here...even in his latest attention getting ploy most ppl step carefully around him rather than taking a stand.

So as my husband has said many many times.....walk away....your “community” does not understand or appreciate unconditional friendship...its simply a group of people playing a game...each with their own act...they don’t know how to take a stand and NN simply does not care to make an example of those who have nothing but hurt and angst in their souls.

So without drama and yes...with some sadness remaining I make this my last blog entry...

~~Be Well and Blessings~~
~~~~~The very essence of communication is Intention~~~
~~Kat~~~