This is my first entry. My story is a bit ... Maybe unusual in some ways. May seem like a fantasy to some, but it's also exhausting.
I'm almost 45 years of age. I'm divorced, really only been in 3 major relationships in my time. First was my complete teenage life. Then I married a beautiful, sexy woman who wasalso a great friend. After 12 years, love faded and I was crushed. Then a nine year run with another. Been "single" for years now. This does not mean there's not a woman in my life. In fact ,there's 3. My ex which is now my roommate. Our relationship had trust issues . Now it's only sexual but very seldom. And there's heather. She's 9 years younger. Great tits , and very active and open minded. We have amazing sexbut a relationship is not on the table for a few reasons. Mainly , she still has a man that she just won't get away from. I don't think she ever will. I care for her , but the situation puts up a wall. Also she has teenage children . I've raised 3 kids on my own. Done with that.
Then. There's Jennifer. She is a complete opposite of the other 2. I can't figure out how or why I fell for her. She's very beautiful. But her personality can be shallow and downright mean. Usually someone that I wouldn't give a second of time . Jennifer persued me like a predator. I rejected her for months . It was nothing but sexual. She wanted to blow me. Nothing more. After months and many propositions, I gave in. Best head I've ever had. Should've stoped there, but during the months that I rejected her pursuit. We became close. Like best friends. Then when it became sexual. I fell fast. Knowing it could never be. She has a family at home. As wrong as it was, it was the best I've ever felt. The sex is phenomenal. But after 3 and a half years of me desperately trying to win her love . And 1000 broken hearts. I gave up. That's when heather came into play. Let me add that jennifer recommended me to heather because of the problems with her man. . All this time Jennifer has told me we are not a couple . I can do as I please. So I did.
Now Jennifer has decided she doesn't want to share me. So our sexual relationship is over unless I only fuck her. Throughout the years of me explaining my issues with her and things she should change for our relationship was always nothing to her. I love her . But nothing has changed on her part. Should I change this one thing for her. Knowing most likely I still have issues that she's not willing to put any effort to resolve. I want to add, we are all friends and hangout together on a daily basis. .
Even though I have 3 women in my life that I care for and love. I think they are not what I want at all. At the end of the day, I'm alone.