For my most recent birthday I got to see my one and only desire Lascivus. She was kind enough to buy me a toy that I could play with when I was back home. I knew however, that I would only be playing with it while I was on the phone and cam with her. Over a month had passed before that opportunity finally presented itself.

During the past month, we have both been particularly busy. I was beginning to miss L very much and getting irritated that she wasn’t spending any time with me on the phone. I couldn’t remember the last time I saw her on cam. Today however, the stars finally aligned and we were both at home alone in the middle of the day. I finally got to see the object of my desire on camera. I was quite on edge and needing to come for her for the past week or so and couldn’t help but to ask her to let me come. She wouldn’t let me until I first took care of several matters.

The first thing I needed to do was to shave myself. I hadn’t been groomed since L took care of this chore a month earlier and I must say it was starting to get a little unruly between my legs. Nothing so dreadfully bad, but when you are used being clean shaven a month’s worth of hair is like a freaking forest. While I cam, I first used my electric razor and then broke out with a traditional blade and cleaned myself up. I had my cam on close-up during the entire time and L approved of the job I did.

The next thing I had to do was to take a shower. This was actually a welcome relief and I had just gotten home a little earlier from a 10 mile run and I was feeling quite sweaty and uncomfortable. I situated my camera so L could watch me and asked if I needed to pay particular attention to anywhere. Of course, I needed to make sure my ass was completely clean and I let L watch me as I inserted a couple of soapy fingers in my ass to make sure I was properly cleaned. L moaned her approval and I proceeded to clean the rest of my body and shampoo my hair.

Once I got out of the shower and dried off, I moved to my bed and asked if I could come for her. She told me instead to go get my toy. I was a bit nervous about using it on myself and I wanted her to force me to do so. I asked if I had to get it, to which she replied yes. I retrieved the toy from my hiding place and when I took it out I wondered how I would get this thing in my ass. I knew it wouldn’t go without lubrication, so I got out a tube of KY and applied it all over. Despite the KY, the toy did not want to go in and I found myself struggling with it. I wasn’t going to give up getting it in however, and to accomplish the task, I needed to try several different positions.

Finally I got it to enter me. On a scale of 1 – 10, I would say that it hurt around a 5. I wasn’t going to give up on it though, because I knew my L wanted me to use it and I didn’t want to disappoint her. I told her that it hurt, but I am not sure if she even replied to that comment. All I was concentrating on was holding the toy in place and getting it into a position so that it wasn’t so uncomfortable.

Eventually the pain started to ease and I felt it moving past my rectum. It was now firmly inside me and I asked L if should could see it ok. She replied that she could and that I didn’t need to move the camera anymore for her to get a better angle. Eventually she told me to start moving it in and out my of ass, while I stroked my cock with my other hand. I begin to get very hot and the thought of the toy moving in and out of me to L’s pleasure and eventually the sensations began to feel good. The toy and a piece on in that extended out from the base with a loop for my cock on the end. I managed to get my cock inside the loop and continued to stroke myself for L. Finally I asked her if I could come and she told me yes.

I am not good with my hand and the only way I can bring myself off is to make a fucking motion into my mattress. It was at this point though that I discovered how this toy truly delivers its pleasure. Once I started the fucking motion it was as if someone pressed a button inside me and I was filled with intense waves of pleasure. Fortunately L said that I could come at this point, because I didn’t think I could hold back for very long. Usually, I could hold back forever, only releasing when my lover tells me to do so. However, with the toy in my ass and the loop around my cock, it was as if I was being xxxxxx to come.

I came into my hand and my come was much thicker than usual. I showed L my come over the camera and I asked her what she wanted me to do with it. She asked that I licked if for her, to which I happily obliged. I imagined myself licking my come from her pussy right after I came in it – something which I absolutely adore doing for her.

I must say I am looking forward to the next time that L tells me to take out my toy. I am only going to use it when it pleases her for me to do so. I am already hard just thinking about this next time.

My damn computer wasn’t cooperating with me today. Lascivus has been after me for a long time to make her a video and I finally got around to doing so. However, I couldn’t get the recording software to record the video properly. I wanted to send her 3 videos… One of me shaving my privates, one of me wrapping my yarn around my cock and one of me coming. I only got the first video done before my computer completely stopped working and I gave up. To make matters worse, when L finally received the video, she said that the video froze in the middle although the audio continued to play.

Anyway, L was still nice enough to me to stay with me on the phone while I came for her. It was a little rushed for me as I was late for a meeting. Normally, I do not do well under pressure… That is I sometimes have trouble coming when the pressure is on, but not today. It’s all a matter of how hot I am. I had trouble at first, but hearing L’s voice telling me to come in various parts of her body sent me over the edge. I felt an incredible release and came endlessly into the palm of my hand, which I showed to L afterwards. When I started to head to my meeting after I got dressed, I felt regret that I came. I missed having that feeling of being on edge and needing to come. I felt as if I was going through withdrawal and missing something. I love being on the edge and seeing how long I can last there.

Anyway, later in the day I was on my way home when I felt the yarn I wear around my cock for Lascivus start to come loose. I could feel an end of it starting to run down one of my legs under my pair of jeans. Of course I wasn’t wearing any underwear so nothing was going to prevent it from eventually falling out the bottom of my left leg. While on the metro, I reached into the top of my jeans and started to pull the yarn out. At L’s request it was quiet long and I felt like a magician pulling an endless magic string out of his mouth. When I came home I started to prepare to go out for a run, but not before stopping to see some pictures that L posted of her on NN. I was immediately put on edge again – a most welcome feeling indeed.

So here I am riding the metro once again with a pair of clothespins firmly clasped onto my nipples. The ride has just begun and they are still not yet so painful. I could have gotten out of this today, as Lascivus only asked me to do so after I made the suggestion to her. I don’t know what possessed me to do so. I guess it was just that there was something in her voice in which I sensed she wanted me to do something.

Right before we left, we were watching each other on cam. I was getting dressed after Lascivus watched me shower and clean myself properly. She made sure I tied my yarn around my cock properly and inspected me from all angles. After I tied my cock, Lascivus knelt before the cam to show me her sweet wet pussy. I am always desperate for it. I want to lick and fuck it so much. But in any event, an overwhelming urge to come came across me and I tried to do so. At this same time, the clock was ticking away and I was becoming later and later for an appointment. I am never good at coming under pressure, but L let me try anyway. Eventually, she told me to stop and to get dressed.

It was during this time that L started to say “I want you” or “I want you to…” and would just trail off without finishing. I wanted to know what she wanted me to do. I was titillated and afraid to ask at the same time. When I pressed her all she said was simply “I want you”. I was afraid that she wanted to tell me to pin my nipples before I left, but having never been afraid to confront my fears, I came right out and asked her if she wanted me to do so. L couldn’t help but giggle in the manner that I love so much and said yes, that she wanted me to pin my nipples. She watched me put them on and throw my clothes over them.

My cock was raging hard at this point and straining against the yarn wrapped around it. L asked me some questions as I was walking out the door (Did I mention we were on the phone all this time?) to which I couldn’t reply having only the mental capability to think about how much I wanted to come and the pain building in my nipples. I just prayed that it wouldn’t be as bad as my last trip with them.

I am writing this while I am at the halfway mark to my destination and fortunately the pain is not too bad. This could also be because the train is moving pretty good so the time today that it’s taking is much less. I’ll just have to see how it feels when I get there.

I don't know how I did it, but I left the house today with clothes pins attached to each nipple and 3 clothes pins firmly attached to my balls. This was done at the suggestion of Lascivus. I can't deny her. Her suggestion that I do so titillated me and made me hard. I was eager to please her.

The clothes pins really didn't bother me at first, as my nipples are quite used to being pinned at least for short times. However, the scrotum pins were a bit uncomfortable as soon as I pulled up my workout shorts and especially after I pulled my jeans over them. I managed to get the pins in a comfortable position however and I soon headed out of my house for the railroad.

All the while I was walking to the Metro, I was talking to Lascivus on the phone. We just chatted about, with nothing in particular, but at one point I did say that my nipples were beginning to hurt. She giggled slightly at my apparent expense. The trains were underground and at this point it was time for me to say goodbye to my darling Lascivus.

I sat in a corner seat and tried to ignore the sensations in my nipples and scrotum. This was not possible to do. At first the pain was just enough to make me excited, but after a while it began to become more and more intense. The pain kept building and all I could think of was removing the pins from my nipples. There was not much I could do to ease the pain, except for leaning over so that my clothes and jackets wouldn’t press against them. Nothing worked.

Eventually I started to get nauseous from the pain and sweat broke out on my forehead. I died ever time the train stopped between stations dragging out my trip. I was desparate to get above ground and ask Lascivus for permission to remove the pins from my nipples.

After about an hour underground, I finally reached my stop and practically ran the several floors to reach the surface. My finger was already on the dial button of my cell phone and I prayed that the phone would reacquire a signal as soon as I hit the street. Fortunately, the phone began to get a reception before I made it out of the station and the line was ringing even before I hit the sidewalk. Lascivus mercifully answered the phone and gave me permission to remove the pins from my nipples. I did it right out on the middle of the sidewalk. I didn’t care who was watching.

I am pleasantly sore right now, but it will be a few days before I’ll want to look at a clothespin again.