Who's world hasn't been flipped upside down and inside out at a time like this? Even after this long, I still can't quite believe we are in the middle of a pandemic, and that our lives have come to what they are right now. There is so much I could say on my take on Covid-19 but actually - I kind of don't want to talk about it anymore!
Now don't get me wrong - I am taking it all very seriously, I don't see how you can not, but i am very well aware this isn't going to go away overnight, which in turn means some of the little things in life, that often mean the most, will have to change. Probably for a significant amount of time, but I'm ok with that, because amongst all of the drama around me - I am happy and safe in my own little world.
But whilst I am a positive and optimistic person for the most part - I like to also consider myself a realist. And one thing that has been heightened in this "lockdown" is how boring my sex life is. I don't just mean now, in times where social distancing is limiting us, but general, as much as I am in an extremely loving and commited relationship - the sex is mediocre at best. And I feel terrible about it - such an amazing guy, yet I'm left sexually unsatisfied - which many would find a surprise.
Is it a deal breaker? Absolutely not - I love the guy. But why can't I stop thinking about it?
Why am I here? Why am I writing about it?
Maybe I just need a safe space to journal my thoughts - where no one "in the real world" will find them. It's strange - I have been a member here for a while now - posted on and off, deleted many accounts along the way, but have never been inclined to write until now. Maybe no one will read it - and that's ok - I just needed the place to write what I may...
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