Well I made a decision in December to end my love affair of many years, and while it was very painful to do so, I have found a sense of peace and contentment from doing so, and have enjoyed my family more so than I have in years. The love affair was so yummy, feeling like a love sick teenager, erotic sex, feeling constantly aroused........ The downside was, higher levels of anxiety, high levels of anger and conflict, not enjoying my family, not enjoying my children....... Feeling constantly on the edge, feelings of guilt, how will the family cope, the kids cope if I leave...... In the end in didn't feel worth it, even though at times I didn't think I could live without my lover? But of course u can, and surprisingly life seems better now???? |