Syntrix's Blog - page 2

And how are all my fine friends, lately? I've been spending extra time in the pool and Friday night I went out with the ladies to dinner, see a movie and some drinks. A good time was had by all.

I need to start getting my list ready to go for Thunder Bay.
If you gentlemen knew that you'd be completely under a lady's control for two weeks, what is one scenario that you'd totally dig on having? Not that you could insist on it, of course, but that you'd enjoy.

I've been negligent on adding new pictures here, too.
I will update one of these days. Seriously. No, really, I mean it. And what's with all those informational lists about people? Who started that?

*blows kisses*

one of those days where you're just glad to be you? Like your skin just fits right? You can see the problems in your life, but they're not bothering you and moreover, they don't seem like they can break you? That's me, tonight. It doesn't happen often, but oh when it does.

I wish you all several of those days and soon.

This is what we dream about.

It's all about fucking, anyways.
-Nikk

Well, I can't really argue with that. (Dating and relationships.)

A little history, if you will. In the middle of my divorce, I met a man. Also in the middle of his divorce. We ended up being together for about two to two and a half years. He moved from his home state, got involved with someone else and married her about a year after we split.

Now, during all this time, we still talked, feelings on both sides. When I found out he had gotten married (a month later, he didn't want to tell me), I really hit rock bottom. I had a one night stand (nineteen months ago) that I still regret, but such as it is, I learned my lesson and haven't done it again. That's just not who I am.

So, anyway, I haven't talked to him for about six months until recently. It's just too hard to do so. I'm trying to find a way to be friends with him without evoking any other feelings. During the last six months, I've been looking for someone to date and found a nice fellow that I will meet in July. I'm really cautious about relationships, as it is.

So, back to the first fellow, I've started talking to him in the last week. I very casually bring up the new guy, and instead of saying anything very meaningful, I kind of blow off the old guy's questions about my feelings for the new guy. I didn't want to hurt the old guy's feelings and we haven't reach the stage of friendship yet where I'd feel like it was cool to share. He's made it very clear that his feelings for me are still deep and I just don't want to hurt him.

Yesterday, I get an email from the old guy that I'm betraying his feelings for me to go do something that is fun and frivolous and that he doesn't have to stick around and be hurt by something like that. (I'm going to Canada in July.) Keep in mind that he's married. You know, with the ring and the wife and stepkids.

He's mad that I won't give the fine details and that I've encouraged him to be happy - in his marriage. That I am not the mistress type of person, I want a partner that is nearby and a family. *sighs* (Please note, for those of you who are mistress type of people, this is not a slam, I just don't function like that, eh?)

I was furious. Jebus. Now I'm just sad. I fired off an email back at him last night, that I didn't care if he did delete that account. Well, of course I care, but I'm the single one here, he's the married one and what I do with my fine self when I have free time is really -my- business now and he gave that all up.

I'm looking forward to going to Thunder Bay. I refuse to feel bad about having a new relationship, that might have a future.
Forgive me for rambling.

This is the second night we've been in the pool.

Dude, I'm tired, wtf? *lol* I love that pool, feel like a a little fish. I'm not in anyway a fish, but I do love swimming.

I hope you all have had terrific Thursday nights and are looking forward to wonderful Fridays.

*blows kisses*

Grandma is still feeling very well. So, that's a good thing.
My grandfather went in (a scheduled appt) and they found two aneurysms(sp?). We knew about one, but the second is a bit of a surprise. We'll know more soon.

In other news, I got my e-ticket confirmation - I'll be in Thunder Bay, Ontario from July 8th to July 23rd. So, if any of you are up there, give me a hollah. (Of course, I'm not sure of the access I'll have from up there, you'll need to PM me before that.)

We used our pool for the first time of the season tonight. A bit chilly, but we got in a good hour. Joyfulness.

Grandma made it through round one of Chemo just fine. No nausea.
She feels good. I'm happy. We will see how long that lasts.
I've heard that sometimes it doesn't start until the second round.

It's been a few days since I've posted pics.
I'm feeling fidgety. Heh. Restless all over.

For that, you all get spankings. *SWAT*

Tomorrow/today, my grandmother undergoes her first chemo treatment for pleural mesothelioma. I am debating whether or not to shave my head as a sign of support. I have already discussed the issue with her.

What do y'all think? If yes, why? If no, why not?

Please keep her in your prayers, as well. Her doctor seems encouraging and we believe it's Stage 1, not further advanced, and her sense of humor is very good. Of course, I am worried, she is my favorite grandparent and I live too far away (too many complications) to be there with her. We are trying to arrange a visit between this treatment and the next one. We will see.

*blows kisses*

So, in a sexual context, which word do you use more often - pussy or cunt? Or do you use something else.

I use cunt more often. It's liberating. The word is taboo in day to day company, but if I'm talking nasty, I'm going to use cunt.

Well, guys, what do you use?

I'm slowing turning even more into a night owl. I can be up till four or five, no problem.

I used Nair last night, but due to some ....blindness, I need to do some slight touching up. Grrr. Sometimes not being able to see in the bath/shower is a pain in the hoohoo. Yes, Raj, I do realize that if I had a lost cat (and we have many farm cats) that this blog would sound a lot different. Er, the previous one would have. I'm amused by your comments.

Today I watched 'The Last Samurai' and '8 Mile.' I know, I'm behind. Tomorrow I'm watching 'The Phantom of the Opera' and 'Hotel Rwanda.' This is what happens when I only watch kids movies. Takes me a while, but in the summers I try to catch up with my extra reading and old movies. Or at least movies that almost everyone has seen. Gah. By the way, Realguy, I liked 'Team America' - it was quirky and bent.

When do you know what you want to do with your life?
I'm feeling a bit adrift lately. I graduate in December (yay?) and then I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm going to take the GRE this summer and the LSAT (moved to September) but other than that, I have no idea. Literally.

How did y'all get there?