Just wanted to let those of you know who were worried, that I live in Auckland not Christchurch so I am safe and sound. But, it is very sad because Ch Ch keeps getting slammed by earthquakes and this time people have died so please keep them in your thoughts. -Tyler

It angers me beyond belief that in Australia and New Zealand a lot of food places charge for condiments such as ketchup and BBQ sauce.

It is my right as a human being to eat my chips/fries/whatever with ketchup for free if I want too God damn it! paying 50 cents or a dollar so that I don't have to eat dry food is outrageous and it pisses me off!

When I get home my first blog is going to be titled "I am back in the land of free Ketchup!"


This is all For the first person who tells me "if you dont like it go back home". I am sending you a virtual bitch slap lol. Let me have this one gripe!

I have been teaching English to a now really good friend of mine I met. She is from Taiwan and her boyfriend is Chinese. She wanted to learn English so I said I would be her conversation partner. While she already had a pretty good basic grasp on English I worked with her a lot and just tonight I found out she passed her English competency exam!

That means A) that she is a great student and B) that I am a pretty good teacher! (although she is much better student than I am a teacher haha) I am so happy for her and happy she did it and I helped! They also took me out for a celebratory dinner and paid for everything. I know that was a big sacrifice for them money wise so it really really meant a lot to me to have them be so kind to me. I won't forget them for sure!

In addition, I had said I wanted to learn how to use chop sticks. Not only did they buy me my own personal set of chop sticks to practise with but they taught me roughly how to use them. Ang and Raymond I wont forget you! It really means a lot to me when people do great things out of the kindness of their hearts and these days that is rarer and rarer which is why I try and pass it on!

Recently I have met a girl from Buffalo NY and she is a Bills/Giants fan. She hates the Cowboys. All of these should be reasons for me to hate her. There is a few problems though. She is smoking fucking hot. She is also really nice. We have been spending a lot of time together recently and last night we fucked for the first time.

We went out to play pool with some friends and the whole time she was bending over the table and whispering to me and generally just making me crazy. I played like shit haha. So finally I whispered to her (prolly louder than I should have lol) "We need to get out of here now!"

She agreed and we made it back to my place. The clothes quickly came off and we got down to business. Now since I have been traveling/road tripping/working I havent got laid in quite a while.

I had a few to drink and generally speaking the first time I fuck a new girl I have first time nerves and I cant cum worth a shit. Wearing a condom also makes it worse for me so I assumed it would be exactly the same this time around.

I was wrong. I was so fucking turned on I bent her over and fucked her and didnt even manage to get her bra off! suddenly I had the feeling... It was happening I was already about to cum like 3 minutes in. I was like FUCK!

I tried to fight it at first but I quickly gave up. I just unloaded and didnt even try and fight it. round one was embarrassingly short and I was so surprised that I even cummed like that due to my past history with new girls and me not cumming.

Normally I can ONLY cum in doggy style but that was not the case. Long story short we quickly went for round 2 and 3 (thank god for more condoms) and I managed to redeem myself.

We talked later and I apologised because I was embarrassed but she said she would rather have me cum in 3 minutes than not at all. I did manage to get her off a few times before we were done so all was well.

It was awesome and I am hoping for more tonight. I quite like NY girls now hehe. If only the Southerners would have fucked the Yankee girls in the Civil War there would have been no war haha.

Oh ya, after round one was over I finally managed to control myself enough to remember to take her bra off and have a go with her amazing tits.

So riverlies be damned. I just had amazing sex with a Yankee

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Monday, January 10, 2011
Its over.....
Finally after 15 days I can rejoin the real world! I made some good money but I worked super hard! Basically all we did the whole time was dig holes and put in foundations (slabs) of concrete for the power poles to be raised up on. It is much more complicated than that but that is very simple terms. I mostly did prep work for the holes before they were drilled by the digger but I did a little bit of everything really. Just alot of this and that. Here is some stats on my job. They did provide us with free food and water which was good.

Days of work: 15
Days off: 1
Hours worked: 156
Breath Tests passed: 15
Random drug tests passed: 2
Number of clothes washes done: alot
Kilometers walked on the rail line: Hundreds
Amount of water drank: 45 liters/ 11.25 gallons
Amount of Subway eaten: 15 times
Chance I will go to Subway anytime in the next 6 months: Zero.
Weight gained: Almost 3 kilos/5 pounds! (all that subway)
Days worked in the pissing down rain: 1
Tan increased: 100%
Work experience gained:100%
Chance that I ever want to use a jackhammer ever again: zero (that sucked!)
Chance that I would wake up at 5:30am on my first day off: 100% lol
This first day off: PRICELESS!

I worked hard but got paid good and really enjoyed everyone I worked with which was good. I hope to keep working with them we will see how it goes. It was super hard but worth it really and I got some great work experience on the rail line.



On a happier note my best mate in the southern hemisphere just arrived (we met in Australia) and now we are reunited to tackle south america together come april!

Yep its my bday again... 30 is fast approaching!

Oh ya, I did kiss her and it was good. As I previously blogged I hate sober first kisses but the world didnt crash down and she didnt reject me and its all good as gravy now that the pressure is off me. All the pressure I put on myself for no damn reason lol

The job is going great but I am fucking tired... 12 hour shifts for 15 days in a row! (we only get jan 1 off) but more on that later.

Happy new years eve!

Please be warned this is about religion. and it is long. If you dont have time or interest you can stop now.

For 7 years I have been lying to my mother telling her I am a hardcore Christian like I once once to not disappoint her. I finally decided to tell her the truth and she didnt take it well. She is really worried I am going to Hell now. Here is what I wrote her. Forgive my spelling mistakes please. If anyone does take the time to read the whole thing I would love to know what you think. Thanks ,Ty



I really struggled on whether or not to write this blog at all or not because I know this may come as a shock to my close friends and family but I really feel it is better to live true to yourself than it is to live for others. So this may mess things up for me with some people but I think just to have it out in the open it is all worth it. I do hope you will take the time to read everything I have wrote here before you jump to any conclusions about me or my belief set. I can also hope I have explained myself clearly. Keep in mind this is only my opinion about religion and I am not saying anyone HAS to believe this. Feel free to debate it with me if you wish.

As some of you may or may not know, I had a really good friend of mine passed away seven years ago. Since then I have really struggled with the concept of organized religion. Shortly after she died I was so angry at God I swore I would never believe in God again. For a while I kept that promise. But, after a while I realised the life of an athiest wasnt for me. I looked around at people and the world and just life in general and I just could not believe that all of this was just created by some "big bang" I couldn't fatham that everything in exsistance was just total randomness. Nor could I believe we just came from Apes.

Shortly after her death I heard from many people "It was God's will to take her" or everything will get better with time. Well none of those statements held true for me. Seven years on and I still think about her alot. Of course I have cycled thru all the stages of grief and I am in a much better place now than I was seven years ago. But, I will never nor have I ever forgotten her. I really struggled with the idea of an all loving peaceful God and if that was the case then why do bad things happen to good innocent 17 year old girls? What did she do to deserve a sudden death like that? How did that benifit her family or any of her friends? If this was some sort of test did I pass or fail?

I guess you could look at it both ways really. From a faith based point of view I guess I failed. It rocked my faith to the core and radically changed it. For a while there I had no faith in anything at all. But, on the other hand I guess you could argue that a positive came out of it. Her death allowed me to open my mind to other possiblities and open my mind to the fact that I was uncomfortable saying I knew 100% with certainity that my way was the only way and there was no other. It allowed me to question and to ponder and to be uncomfortable with condemning anyone to Hell just because they dont believe what I believe.

So, since I wasn't an atheist and I did believe in God then what was I? It took me quite a while to answer that question and I have talked to countless people religious figures and non. I think I am still evolving in my beliefs. But now seven years later I think I have it roughly figured out. You know I have been traveling all over the globe for the past 10 years and I have literally met hundreds of people. People from all races,shapes,sizes and religions.

The one commonality I find among travelers is for the most part everyone I met and have the "religion discussion" with agrees that no one religion is right. For the most part I think I agree with that too. Now I want to be clear that I still very much consider myself a Christian and still believe in God and Jesus but the question I struggle with is, Is that really the only right answer?

I was raised to believe that our religion is right and everything else is wrong. Christianity is not the only religion that has that basic belief set. Muslims believe that as do Jews and pretty much every other Monotheistic religion in the world. But, is that really the answer? One certain religion is right and everyone else is condemned to Hell? That really bothers me and that is what I don't agree with. You know, you see on the news all the time the Extremist Muslims saying Death to the infedels and kill all the westerners who don't believe in Allah. Obviously not all Muslims are like that ( I know plenty who are not) but that is a very extremist line of thinking. To kill everyone who doesn't believe in Allah.

I was raised to believe that Jesus died on the cross for our sins (and I still believe that) but, I was also told anyone who doesn't believe that is going to Hell. Is that also not an extremist statement? Either you believe that or your going to Hell? I just think there should be a middle ground. I can't in good conciencse condemn someone to Hell. It doesn't seem very God-like to me. Some religions also say that homosexuality is totally wrong and a sin. Well I happen to know many gay and lesbian people and I actually have quite a few really close gay friends. What right do I have to condemn their life style choice? Are they any less of a human being than me? I don't think so! Do they deserve any less compassion or love than me? I don't think so! and I certainly don't consider them anymore of a sinner than I am. Just because that life style choice is not my own doesn't give me any right to condemn them for their choices.

So while I do believe in God and I believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for my sins and that has never changed for me. What has changed is my belief that every other religion in the world is wrong and condemned to Hell. Can we not all be right in our own way? As long as you live the life of a good and decent person and try and do what is right, can't that be enough?

What right do I have to say what I believe is absolutely right and there is no other way? I have no idea if what I believe is right and I am at a point in my life where I am ok with saying I don't know. I don't have all the answers and I wont ever have them until I die. I can just hold onto the hope that I have lived a great life and done what is right and when I die there will be a Heaven and I will be going there. Because I absolutely believe in God and if you believe in God by default you must also believe in the Devil. Hell is not a place I ever want to be. Both God and Satan deserve to be respected and not messed with. Just because you can't see God or Satan doesn't mean they aren't real.

As I say this will come as a shock to most of my family and friends considering my relgious beliefs in the past but over the years and especially after my friends death I just REALLY came to question a lot of things including my beliefs and I decided to use my own brain and figure out what I really believed and not just what others told me to believe without questioning anything. I think having an open even mind to question things is good. I am a very logical person and I have always enjoyed questioning things in life religious or not. I have always been told that you can't pick and choose what you believe but it just feels rather extremist to me to say one religion is right and everyone else is wrong. That is just the same as saying Chocolate icecream is the best icecream in the world and no other flavour even comes close. What about all the people who like vanilla? Just because they like vanilla and it is their choice is it automatically totally wrong? and who am I to say Chocolate is so much better than vanilla?

I am sorry for any pain this will cause to anyone in my life but I need to be true to myself and stop lying to myself and others and I need to stop pretending that I 1000% believe something I just don't. I am only 25 so my beliefs could evolve and change over time and I could come full circle and go back to my orginal belief set or I could end up believing something totally different at the end of my life. Maybe I am too logical but I just question a lot of things.

I hope I have explained myself clearly and I hope everyone who reads this understands and is open minded to take it for what it is. It is just my opinion on the whole religion debate and it is what helps me sleep at night. I have some great friends who are Buddist,Hindu's,Muslims,Jews and others and I am just not comfortable telling them that they are totally wrong and destined to Hell. But, that being said, there is a God and I sure do hope He knows I am trying my best to do what is right and live a good life and I sure do hope when it is my time to leave this earth that I will be headed for Heaven and not Hell. I can understand how shocking this must be for my family and close friends but really this has be ongoing for me for quite a while and I have just been really good at hiding my inner religious struggles for a long time.

I am just sick of hiding it now. It has nothing to do with my travels or anything like that. Being in New Zealand hasn't converted me into some crazy scepetic lol. For seven years now I have struggled with this and I have talked to countless people both religous and not and I have tried telling myself these feelings I am having are wrong and my whole belief set is wrong but, the more I try and convince myself or have others convince me I am wrong the more I see that I actually do agree with this and there is no use trying to fight what I believe. I am just trying to settle my inner demons and be ok with what I actually logically believe. I dont know if I am right or wrong and I am ok not knowing this is just what helps me sleep at night.

I am not asking anyone to believe what I believe if they don't want too. The defination of faith is believing without seeing or without proof. Can't we just have faith that God loves everyone equally regardless of their religion or what they believe? and that a loving God loves all people and doesn't actually want anyone to go to Hell nor should we condemn anyont to Hell for not believing as we do.

To wrap this all up, I very much consider myself still a Christian and I still believe the basic facts that God does exsist and Jesus died on the cross for my sins I just dont really subscribe to the organized religion way of doing things. If I was xxxxxx to put a label on myself (I hate labels) I would say I am more spritual than religious I guess. Sorry for being so serious but this needed to be said for my own good. Just know that I still love yall and I hope everyone in my life still loves me just the same. I am still the same Tyler I still look the same and sound the same (even if I spell like a Brit now and talk like an Aussie ). I just no longer can believe that anyone has a Monopoly on God. I believe that everyone who is a good and decent person and tries to do the right thing in life is correct in their own way and I have no right to tell them otherwise. I also want to be clear that I don't condemn anyone for their particular beliefs and if you totally disagree with me that is totally fine. I just hope that everyone who reads this is open minded enough to take it for what it is and not shut me out immediately or think I am totally wrong or crazy. I would hope you wont condemn me for mine either. I hope you won't worry about me either because I am still doing fine I feel really blessed to be loved by so much family and friends all over the world.

Yall take care,Tyler

Last night she was giving me all the signs and I blew it. I should have kissed her and I didnt.

I need to explain something. I hate first kisses. I always have and I am afraid I always will. I used to be much much shy-er than I am now and I think this hang up is what is left of "shy tyler"

When I have had a few drinks I am able to "turn off" my brain and not give a fuck and just go for the first kiss with no problems and I have never been turned down ever.

But, when I am sober it makes me crazy! I am constantly thinking "does she want a kiss now?" am I leaning in too far? what if she says no? what if she wants a kiss and I dont do it? It makes me insane! So going for the first kiss sober, I am always an epic fail.

I wish we would have been drinking last night then it would have happened. Funny thing is, after I am over the "first kiss hurdle" I am totally fine. No issues with anything! It is just all that god damn pressure.

Now she is going to think I just want to be friends and that I dont like her. Well I do like her and I want to be more than friends but I fear now that I have blown it too many times. We have seen each other more than once and I still havent kissed her. Maybe I have one more chance to do it then its over forever. Maybe I have one more chance....hopefully.

Fuck my life. I hate this shit.

People ask me all the time if I get homesick. I have been gone 13 months and really honestly I am not home sick much at all. Of course I miss my family and my friends but I am not REALLY ready to go home yet.

That being said, I REALLY miss Texas comfort foods and my mom's cooking. I did find a note my dad wrote me when I left at the bottom of my bag. It made me miss home alot.

The xmas thread about xmas when you were a kid made me miss home, I also miss Turkey Day. and I just met a guy here who has a "true American" Jeep Grand Cherokee. It is made for driving on the left hand but it is hardcore american lol and it makes me home sick!

But really I am doing ok here in AKL.

Yep I made it here alive and after a crazy first night I have been doing fine so far getting a bank account etc. So all is well in Tyler Land haha