I have been meaning to post an update. Last weekend, The Wife got 'upset' again because I did not respond to her intentions which were not clear on (I can't remember) either Friday or Saturday night, Sunday morning, she was upset and we ended up having a decent fuck. I guess my problem is that I am not truly convinced that she really 'wants' sex, but, rather is encouraging it to keep me satisfied. I did not make any moves this past weekend and she seemed disappointed Sunday morning - well, I have said for as long as we have been married that if I am not in bed when she wakes up and she wants me, all she has to do is send a text and I will be there, but that has never happened. She DID seem a bit affectionate when we went to bed Sunday, but when I moved to continue, she closed her eyes and went to sleep so no go there. I am basically just not going to initiate anything and see where things go.

Well, it has been about a month since any activity and I was quite frustrated. On Saturday, we met our daughter to go shopping and just hang out a bit. When we were meeting her, The Wife mentioned she had reposted something on social media but did not tag me but I should read it. I read it and said it was a nice thought and I think i check most of the boxes in it and her response was sort of 'meh' which I took to be a negative or neutral reaction. This sort of threw me off as I really do try hard even if I do not get back what I think I deserve. When we got home, we watched TV for a while and since I knew her feet were sore from all the walking, I went and sat in front of her to massage her feet which went on for over an hour. She appeared to be enjoying this and I was hopeful (sort of) that it might lead to some sex so I went and swallowed one of my enhancer pills. Fast forward to the end of the 10PM news and we head to bed where she actually comes to bed without a top, lays down next to me and grabs my dick which is moving in the direction I hoped for. I move to stroke her tits and rub her back as best I can from the position I am in but get little response. Ultimately, We both turn away from each other and go to sleep, restless for me and I found out later for her as well.
I get up in the morning and I am PISSED! Just tired of being unsatisfied. When she finally gets up, I pretty much unload on her that I am done - ready for a Divorce and she is surprised. I point out to her how unfair things are to me and that I am continually frustrated by not only the 20 years of no sex but her lack of seeming to want to make things better including a statement by her to the effect of she has sex with me because I want it - sort of indicating that it is not a priority for her.
She Emphatically said this far from the truth and she will try much harder to be proactive with me. We ended up going back to bed and having sweaty sex for over 90 minutes where she orgasmed, I think, 5 or 6 times. Finally at the end I did cum in her. We discussed that we need to make more effort to do this more often.
While it was quite nice and enjoyable, I am not truly convinced that it will solve things. She made it clear that she does not want me to Divorce her, so she is aware that she needs to step up her efforts. I told her that I will not continue to always be the aggressor as she turned me down so continuously for 20 years.
I guess we will see how things go moving forward.
Yes, I know I have posted similar things in the past, but perhaps I got through to her this time.

Last weekend, Friday night, I drank a cup of my 'enhancing' coffee (keeps me quite hard) and when we went to bed, tried to get things started - the answer was, sorry, I took a sleeping pill so no go. I said maybe tomorrow night and she said ok, but was too tired at that point so I said, well I will come back to bed tomorrow morning around 8:30 or so. I did and we did have a decent fuck.
This weekend, she has shown no interest and now (Sunday morning) has Covid.
Oh well .....

Well it has been a few weeks and I was getting a bit frustrated. We went to Houston with our daughter and her kids (all sharing a Air BNB so no privacy really). They left and we had a few days to ourselves. First night alone, we were watching TV an I made a comment that she should strip but did not think anything of it and went to wash dishes and take a pill in case things got hot. Came back to find her with her tits out and her playing with her nipples - WOW - so hot! We ended up fucking on the sofa for a while and both came nicely. After a bit we went to bed and I mentioned that I wanted to suck on her tits again and she said anytime so I went for it. She said how horny she was and I moved to eat her which I did to a loud, screaming orgasm after which I fucked her for a few more minutes. Overall one of the best sex sessions she and I have ever had. Maybe this will be a turning point for her to be somewhat more of an instigator.

Well, nothing happened with The Wife this past weekend despite my gently trying. The Ex and I have been talking about hooking up, but it has not happened until today - she came over for us to get organized for a big event this evening and we ended up in bed where I sucked on her tits and ate her to a VERY loud orgasm. I tried to fuck her, but, despite my 'little blue pills' I could not keep it up, I think I was just too distracted by work which sucks. Overall, it was a nice experience. Truly does not need to be a regular thing with her as overall things are pretty decent with The Wife these days. When we went to bed last night - much later than usual - we were cuddling as we usually do these days and she turned to sleep on her side and specifically requested that I spoon her which was very nice of her to ask.

We went to bed Saturday night, perhaps a bit later than usual and things did get started. She was quite 'energetic' about giving me head and, despite me trying to pleasure her, she wanted to get me to cum that way. which she did. Of course, then I had to get her a towel/shirt for cleanup because she does not swallow, but still pretty nice.

I guess once a week, it will be (even though I really would like more) so last night we went to bed a bit later than usual and when I started kissing The Wife things got started. She does really like giving me head (although she does not swallow) and last night she was really getting into it so I decided to sort of move things up a notch (not a really conscious decision, just heat of the moment) and started fucking her mouth which she took well and got even more active. I then moved to eat her during which she seemed to have a small orgasm and then fucked for about 15 -20 minutes for both of us to orgasm.

Friday I had to work a double shift and it was after midnight by the time we went to bed, Saturday I had to be up at 4:30 AM to put together a catering order for 7:00 delivery. I had planned to come back from the delivery and sort of putter around the house but I was so worn out that I went back to bed. Around 9:30 / 10. The Wife woke me up in an amorous mood. We ended up having a very good fuck lasting a bit over an hour total with oral from both sides and we both came from fucking (I think she came a bit from me going down on her as well). Very enjoyable.
The movie mentioned in my last entry is Outlander on Netflix, It is a very good show, we are in season 2 and if you enjoy historical shows this is a good one. It is Fictional while based loosely on actual events.

I had a long day of work Saturday and when I got home we were watching a show on Netflix with lots of sexual content (more on that later) and when we went to bed I was hoping for some activity as we had discussed it - sort of - . Well, I was lucky and we had a pretty good session with oral from both sides and fucking. She came slightly from me going down on her and again when we were fucking as I came in her.

We took the train home from Chicago overnight from Friday to Saturday - I enjoy the train, but it IS expensive vs just flying up and neither of us slept well. Part of the reason I wanted to take the train was that in the past we did fuck on the train which I found nice, but she insisted we sleep separately this time, so no go. We did, somewhat surprisingly, fuck again Saturday night and it was sort of just ok. I guess I should be glad we are actually having sex, but I still hope for more.