Part 3.

There was a period of about 3 years between marriages. During this time I felt fate had been pretty harsh to me sexually. As much as I enjoyed sex, I'd had sex with one person. Period. And with that track record, I couldn't be sure I ever would ever again.

So I thought about guys. Maybe just a jackoff buddy? Maybe more. But there are health risks and what do I know about any of that? Still, I did meet (in public) with one guy once to talk about it. Never followed up.

Still, the thought never went truly out of my head. In the last few years, my verility has declined some. Always kind of slow to cum (not such a bad thing), I've got slower still. Not quite so hard nor quite so quick to get stiff. Plus, wife's box is drying out (and I'm not about to encourage drugs that could risk her health) so there's only solo play to get hard for. And now some prostate treatments have pretty well dried up my spurt. Fuck! May as we'll switch roles - strap a dildo on her and let her ride my ass. Why the hell not?

But there's always some room for imagination. So here I am on NN. Maybe I get some racy conversation. Maybe I find some sweetie to suck off. Who knows? But I'll be by here now & again. Post a picture or two. Freshen up my status here & there. Where's the downside?

So to continue. I get married in my early 20s. Bang the wife as much as I can with as much variety as she will allow. Even in fantasy, guys don't enter into this except some dirty talk about her banging another guy which works ok with me in the sense of a comrade for sloppy seconds.

(Incidentally, she cheated on me some and I think I did in fact have sloppy seconds once or twice.)

Since I'm on the topic, I'll say that I might have been ok with the cuckold thing if she'd just been open and honest about it and agreed to tell me as much as I wanted to know. Well too, that medical risks were minimized.

We get divorced ultimately. By this time, I'm ok about gays. And an odd thing has happened - I'm asking myself a logic question "Can 100s of millions of hetero women and gay men all be crazy? They suck cock and seem to enjoy it." Worse, my 2nd wife explained how she really liked how it felt in her hand. WTF! Am I missing something here?

Plus, hell I like my dick. I like how it looks and feels. It's a tiny step (logically) to "I like how his dick looks and feels.

Enough until part 3.

I guess there's a limit on how long a status can be. Blog instead?

Ok then. So my whole purpose in being on NN is this recurring interest in being on the pointy end of a dick. (I suppose a chick with a dildo works too?) whether I actually do it or not, maybe I can get some benefit out of discussing it here & with the denizens of NN.

Let's get down a little history. First time I have the slightest thought about any of this was swimming at the Y many many years ago with a buddy. We were probably 8 or so. And nude,as was typical in those days. He was going up the pool ladder just ahead /above me. Seeing his wet slippery ass and dripping balls so close.... I remember thinking "nice".

After that, all that continued was my lifelong interest in skinny dipping. In fact, I was pretty down on "fags" before I was convinced at about 25 that there was no reason to be prejudiced against them, but I was definitely not about to join!

That said, I should note one incident. A friend & I got drunk when we were about 19. Too drunk to drive further and certainly too drunk to show up back home. We dropped in on a friend of my older brother. Maybe we drank more there? In any event, the last two things I recall from that night was showering (to perhaps sober us?) with my friend under the watchful eye of our host, and being in bed naked with my host and him putting my hand around his dick and asking me if I thought it was small or not. I recall assuring him it was a perfectly suitable size. After that, nothing. Remember - I was seriously wasted. (No sore ass in the a.m. either.)

Perhaps I'll leave my history there for now.