a starr reborn's blog post

Wednesday, December 9, 2009, 8:35:27 AM

I have been gone so long. Everyday things have been kid of turned upside down, and now I am trying to find my way to where I want to be. Life is change if it is anything. I've found myself focusing so much energy on just making ends meet that a lot of my creativity seems to be sacrificed.
I've also been preoccupied with friends I've made on here whom I at one point and time spoke to outside of of NN. It wasn't a large number of people, but I care for them. Now we don't talk at all. It makes me sad, I know people get busy, but its sad when you can't help but get a strong notion you aren't important, hell you don't even rate as amusing to the point there is no communication. I guess its the lack of finality. That maybe I don't even rate an explanation. You try and retrace your steps to some point or altercation but you don't find one. And then you suddenly feel like the velveteen rabbit.
I definitely have had a perplexing and draining past few months. Id' like to think character building. I just want to feel that energy, passion, the boundless link that seemed to just have poems gushing out of me.
I have missed you NN, and my special friends. I hope everyone is doing well. To anyone who feels slighted by me, I apologize. I would even appreciate knowing if I did so. Sleep well my friends.

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scarylady on 9-Dec-09 9:14:11

I can understand a fair portion of that, I am one of those who has gotten incredibly busy, and sadly have not had the time I once had to natter with my friends : ( The thing is, they know I care even if we don't 'see' each other for ages :) People understand that often our priorities change, and that we can't be as available as previously.

I firmly believe that what doesn't kill us makes us stronger *hug*

duttyrockgal on 9-Dec-09 12:20:28

Ohhh hun, wondered where u went! Lovely to see u blogging again. Sometimes it may seem that friends no longer care or have the time, but true friends r always there if ya need em. xxxxx

~Wenchie~ on 9-Dec-09 14:12:21

I can tell this has been a period of great growth and change for you ...all I can say is, Ive missed ya round the place,xxxx

juicy on 9-Dec-09 14:40:42

starrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

mdguy on 9-Dec-09 16:16:48

Things happen. I know how you feel, and it sucks, but things do happen. As long as you can still reach out, then it's ok.

Sallinque on 9-Dec-09 21:27:20

Great to hear from you! Life does change constantly and sometimes focus has to shift to keep things on an even keel.

I hope you have a peaceful holidays and you find time to keep us up to date with your comings and goings.

Take care my friend.

cas999 on 9-Dec-09 22:26:05

Yey... /me spins the gitter ball and reaches for her tank top and platform boots ..... let's dance :):):)
Hun, life has been a whirl wind here too at the moment - seems it's the year for it!
Missed ya xxxxx

shy_briton on 10-Dec-09 0:58:20

Great to see you with us again my friend. We all miss you.