I finally got mail! i looked online to find some kinky birthday presents for a friend of mine and sure enough had to order something for myself as well.
it arrived today and i already had quite some fun with it, seems as if it immediately reached place two on my "fav toy list" still have to make some more "test drives" but it seems to be worth it's money.

I was just giving back the dvds I rented and I saw just the weirdest thing.
Behind the counter was a guy who looked exactly like the guy I lost my virginity to!! Same built, same haircolor (his hair was a bit shorter, but that was the only difference), same style of cloth, just exactly the same. Looked like they cloned him. I was quite confused and I think I behaved like some stone age guy just being thrown into today.
And if now anyone would say:"Maybe it was him" I know for sure, he was not. I lost my virginity to an Australian I met in London back when I worked there and he is back in Australia by now. And this guy has for sure been Austrian, since the way he spoke is absolutely impossible to learn for anyone not being raised here.
Still it was really confusing and memories, long ago forgotten, came up to my mind again. And maybe, just maybe I will start rening more dvds.

I had a really sexual dream this night. Actually it has only been the second sexual dream I ever had (that I can remember) and it was HOT.

There has been me and this girl I know, and who is rather known here, and we had lots of fun. Not that I have any experience till now, but i think in this dream we did about everything two girls can do to each other. The dream seemed to last for really long, at least judging by all the things I could remember we "did".

When I woke up my bed was wet. And remembering the amount of liquid there was I think I must have come close to squinting during my dream. Never been able to do that while awake.

Tonight has been a good night. *big smile on my face*

Well, the worst part of my "I need a man right now"-phase has gone I think. Sure, there are quite a lot of things a girl misses without one, but due to loads of batteries the latest "I am so horny I am just about to jump the pizza delivery guy" episode passed.
I have been thinking about buying a premium membership (once I got all the money back on my account I spent on batteries ) but what will happen to me when I can see all those videos then? Ok, looking at it in retrospective being horny 24/7 was not too bad, but i am not the best to be around then.
Maybe i should flick a coin.

Well, i think that was the latest from me. Oh no, I had a request from a friend. He wanted to see my tits. But what good would he be? He is a gay friend. All I am gonna hear after that is: Your tits are so big. How heavy are they? Can I weight them? And whenever he thinks that it fits into the topic he would put it into a conversation. (Yes, he is the kind of guy that is not able to seperate the loud from the low voice.) And I would not have anything from it. I really am not the shy kind of person when it comes to my body, just ask those guys who look into my window when I am in my dorm room in the nude, but that really goes to far and does nothing for my sex-life.

Ok, I spilled my guts again Thank you for reading it to the very end.

great, now i am not only horny as hell but also sentimental. we get tv-shows quite a bit later (well, some much later than others, there can be something like 3 month to 3 years between the american broadcast and the german version of it). this weekend there have been two finals of series and i watched them both. (i know, my taste is not always the most equisite).

yesterday i saw the final of "charmed" and in the end i had tears in my eyes.

today i watched the final of "six feet under" and i cried. i actually cried. not only running tears, no although that would have been weird enough but i really did the hardcore-version of crying. with sobbing and everything you expect.

ok, that took my mind of all the phantasies that go around in my mind for about half an hour but now it is worse than before. now i am not only longing for sex (and trust me, that feeling is rather overwhelming right now) but the feeling that i want a relationship is slowly creeping in as well. AND NO MAN AROUND!!!!!!!!

*sigh*

It seems as if right now it is one of these times again. Stress at university and I am still here for much too long. The only question I have is: am I here the whole time because right now I am about to go up the wall horny as I am, or am I so horny because I am here all the time?

really difficult question, the only thing i am sure about is that my libido is once again making me crazy and that right now there is not a single minute in which no sexual idea go through my head, and my vibrator is not able to fulfill any of them .

yes, being single sometimes really sucks. (oh, sucking.... but thats something entirely different)