amancalledpony's blog post - Thank you

The last six months of my life have been anything but fun. Mostly due to an estranged wife. But everyone on here has stood by me. In spite of my meltdowns. I completely appreciate this. And I want to thank Ali_Dee for putting up with me outside of here. She has endured things that she shouldn't due to forces out of our control.
Today I had bad news. A man who slightly older than I, almost a big brother to me, committed suicide a few days ago. It hit me hard. Harder than I could ever imagine. This was a man who survived Nam. Who told me mortar attacks are nothing compared to midnight rocket attacks. Who understood when I told him about people who were you friend yesterday are you against you tomorrow. And vise versa. But he died for a reason I fully comprehend. He was old. He made too much money in his last job. While all he wanted was a job to be productive until he retired.

So I apologize to Ali and the people of status. This one ripped me to my soul. It was a there for the grace go I moment. The nightmares appears when you least expect them....

It was especially hard to hear this on a day when so many young people lost their lives. For a reason we will never know.