arabella_topaz's blog post

So...here I am, procrastinating/avoiding once again. (Although, in my defense, I am doing more laundery. And eating. Beef bulgogi with fried cabbage, rice, and lots of hot sauce.) My adoptive father told me once that I'm like an ostrich. When they perceive danger, they stick their head in the sand as a means of avoiding it.

I did have coffee with the girls, and have a get-together with them to look forward to when I get back. (Not to mention my wonderful, comfy bed with clean bedding.) Thinking I'd better pack a swimsuit even though I can't go where I used to tan (topless) cause there's a couple houses there now. I always feel like a kid-not in a good way-when I go to my parents. Unresolved issues from childhood, maybe. I'm going to be uncomfortable in so many ways which is why I figure why not be more uncomfortable and look at this situation and how I really feel about it. And if I want to date someone-eventually seriously-or I just want to hook-up casually cause I can't do both.

Laundery's done and I'll finish packing in the morning. Out of the things I want, sleep is the one I can have and I fully intend to take advantage of it.