beachdreamz's blog post

Sunday, March 18, 2007, 11:57:46 PM

OK....
What alternative universe am I living in and who stole the real Beachy?

I am about to make an announcement that shall shock and amaze any of you crazy people out there who have read my blog in the past few years I've called NN home.

/me takes a deep breath....

I, Beachdreamz....am.........................
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.......HAPPY!

I may have thought I was in the past few years but its always been temporary. Since hmm about a week before Christmas, the happiness has been growing inside of me. I can feel the lightness and its amazing.

Obviously its shining through me because in the past few weeks I have been asked out by hmmm 8 different guys. Umm I don't think I have been asked out 8 times total in all of my life, let alone less than a month. Not 10 minutes ago I got home from a movie and had to go to the store...walking back a car of 3 guys stopped me and told me I was a "fucking hottie" and where did I live because they would be coming knocking (haha yes I locked my door when I got in).

The weight is dropping off and I have no idea why. I lost 6-7 pounds this week. I bought new jeans last week and already they are almost too big.

But this is bigger than that....Its not just getting asked out and looking better - its something inside of me thats changing. I KNOW that I can do anything and I may fail...but it won't kill me. With everyday I am stronger and more sure of who I am. For once I am at a loss for words (hahah well kinda). This is the most incredible feeling ever and can't even begin to put it into words how awesome it is to know I have finally accepted myself. I am worthy and I will no longer settle for less.

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Others Have Said:

jphiggins on 19-Mar-07 0:16:02

Sounds fantastic Beachy. I'm very happy for you. :)

oaktree473 on 19-Mar-07 0:54:32

I'm so glad you're doing great. I hope the happiness keeps rolling your way ;)

LUNNA on 19-Mar-07 1:00:11

its called growing up beachy....it hurts but its wonderful!!

Im so happy that you finally see in you what has been evident for the rest of us since we met you. =)

*big hugs*

mikeoxlong1959 on 19-Mar-07 1:02:48

Happy to hear you are happy!Isn't self esteem wonderful!

mont26 on 19-Mar-07 6:24:42

Congrats Beachy! Glad you are having this transformation.

PerkyGirl on 19-Mar-07 7:20:48

*hugs* honey! =)

BM21 on 19-Mar-07 10:29:28

Wow Beachy I am so happy for you. There's nothing like changing yourself for the better and seeing what good things come along with it. I'm glad that you're truly happy and that things are looking up. And yeah locking the door was a good thing haha....

PS you are definently a hottie

Sandman on 19-Mar-07 11:44:16

Just as your NN Friends have been telling you for years ..... We lovya Babe ! :Þ

willow01 on 19-Mar-07 13:49:10

/me smiles and hugs beachy!!! Yay!! xxx

incubator on 20-Mar-07 16:25:05

Looks like I have arrived at the right time ... glad to hear you found happiness Bd.

OutActivity on 25-Mar-07 16:03:29

I've been reaing your blog from the beginning. I'ts quite long. Skipped a few years. I like what I am reading. You have good friends and good times. It seems to me that you are getting wiser every day. Take care. :)

straightup on 25-Mar-07 19:43:02

Well we've all been telling you that you are a Beautiful woman and now hope you believe it, sounds like you do, Beachy I could see the first time I saw your pics, You are a true Hottie, Big Hugs and even Bigger Kisses, Luv ya Gary xxx