beachdreamz's blog post

Grrrrrrrrrrr

Well I am off for the day to go find a dress for the wedding. Jeepers this is taking forever
But when I got up this morning and logged into another site I saw something posted by a friend of mine who basically is thinking of ending his life. I care for this person very much and we have got to know each other fairly well. I don't know if I am more angry that he won't talk to me or if I am upset that he will really do something dangerous. I guess its a combination of both.
My mother once decided she was going to try and commit suicide. I don't know if she actually tried or not as some family came and got her but I was the one who found the note about a year later, at Christmas time no less. I don't know what it is but people who threaten it have no sympathy from me. I am more the one who will stand there, in anger and tell them to do it. I do know its a call for help which I am more than willing to stay by their side until the rough time is over. But taking your life? I've been to hell and back at times in my life and I am still here. I am so mad/hurt/scared right now that if he was here with me I would kick his ass (although he is 6'4" so I will need to kick high!)