beachdreamz's blog post

Ok so in exactly 24 hours I will be on the plane heading for Calgary.EKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. I have never been on a plane before. I am still not packed and I have got to go to work and the pick a few things up tonight. The past 2 weeks have just been a blur of constant events and exciting things to do that even though I knew my trip was coming I didn't have time to dwell on it....well thats changed now. OMG tomorrow I will be seeing my brother whom I haven't seen in 7 years, my mom who I have seen once in 14 years, some cousins/aunts/uncles I have seen only a few times in my life - and I get to be reunited with my grandparents who are more like parents to me, and an aunt who is like a sister. OMG am I going to be able to handle this? Let the countdown begin people....24 hrs to go!!!!


BTW need some quick advice- My dad is a complete asshole and hasn't been there for me in so long its sad. I found out hes not going to the wedding and this is the last straw. This man used to be my best friend and I am tired of being hurt. I have decided I want him out of my life for good. That being sad - I want to call him and tell him just how much hes hurt me. Should I make the call before I go?? Should I wait until I come back? Or dont make it at all? I think I need to make the call for me. Its time I dealt with this and moved on. The worst part is I am too soft hearted and even though I am the one being hurt I don't want to make the call in case it hurts him. Stupid eh? Any advice?