bellatif's blog post - White wine

Yesterday night friends of us came over. Seeing we all had to stay home instead of sightseeing Brussels, we decided to hang out with each other. What else can you do on a Thursday night, besides watching television.

The night started all good. Talking, having laughs, eating and drinking. But this morning... I can say without a doubt that white wine is very dangerous. But the hangover isn’t the worst thing for me. I’m more embarrassed that I even got drunk amongst my friends. I have always considered myself as a very pride, strong woman. And I like to have control about how I appear amongst others. For some reason I find it important what they think about me.

And when wine is starting to have an effect on me, I do and say things I regret later on. I don’t really remember details about what I said, or what I just did that night. But I remember how I felt.

And now I’m wondering what my friends will think of me. Boyfriend tells me I shouldn’t really be embarrassed about that, I’m just human after all. And I know that is so true, but I would take my actions back if I could ... Just hoping I didn’t embarrassed anyone. And if i did, i'm so sorry about it. Just don’t like it when people see the other, not so strong me. When I’m weak.

I will survive, and I will face me friends again. But today I just want to crow in a hole (in the ground). So not want to face the real world,... Life can be hard...