bellatif's blog post - life is a rollercoaster, the rock version

Yesterday I broke one of my nails. Just playing guitar. Maybe I was just caught in the moment, thinking I’m one of those punk/hard rock chicks. But I’m so not that though. I don’t really care about my nails. It is just a stupid nail. But for some reason I can’t stop thinking of that moment just before I ripped it off. And now a feel like “why did you have to play that kind of music?”. “Couldn’t you stay with a love song?”

Maybe I was stupid to play it like that. But I’m so inexperience when it comes to my guitar. And I seem to make a lot of mistakes when i'm trying to figure out how to make the right sound. Disappointing myself in my skills. But I’m learning to be a good player. I think it is just me trying to make it difficult. Instead of starting easy, I want to bang the ‘fucking’ guitar. And I know that is not good for the guitar or for me.

But tonight I will try to patch up my nail. And start playing a love song, instead of ‘life is a rollercoaster’ from Ronan Keating. Well, not his version, my hard punk version of it. Just hope the guitar is not to damage after yesterdays play session.