For too long I have complained and griped and whined about the lack of sex. well after a year and a half of non penetration I was given a pleasurable shock. I got to pull out Willie and let him graze. It was I know frustrating for her, for Willie the little limp was not cooperating. After a few minutes of almost getting up to it I backed away.

I excused myself and said please be patient for another moment I will try the handy dandy vacuum pump. Ah lucky, I found that cock ring and loaded the pump a few good pumps and Wah-La a nice firm erection and with cock-ring in place success and oh how sweet it was.

I took and put it in every silly millimeter I had and pumped and humped as vigorously as I could. I did not want to disappoint her now. Finally a little head relief ah ah that is so good. She patted and said old boy you did good now get some sleep. We hugged and snuggled but I knew in a moment she had not finished as I listened to the little sounds she made. Although so sweet I began to weep, because she was tired and could not sleep. I got her engine started but failed to throw the switch to off. So with some sweet nothings I whispered in her ear telling her I loved her, I reached for her vagina and nimble fingers found there way in.

Willie had his turn I told her then, now it is your turn I will bring you to the cumming end. The sounds of mmm;s and ahh's changing to deeper or little hear then umm harder baby get a little rougher and all of a sudden her body went into tremors. We ceased all action while she absorbed the moment. Then with its passing more she said again and we did. Happy to oblige I said good she said You have awakened this xxxxx now do it again and again. Enough she said We snuggled a moment and to the potty she did head. Once back in bead a smile on her face while looking like she is still lost in space down to her pillow her eyes shut night. She was off to sleep for the rest of the night.

Yes it had been quite a dry spell, but last night relieved the drought for awhile and has given back the reason to smile. This morning the alarm went off and she rose to go to her teaching job. She saaid something like I'll with you after school. O'boy maybe I will have extra duty tonight. So I guess all works out if you give it time and I am sure glad she is the love of mine.

I take so many meds. It is hard for the doctors to get the right combination that really works controls my blood pressure without killing me. They have done well so far but yesterday my VA oracticioner said, we believe we know where to look now for the problem or at least a major portion. I will be set up for a sonic gram on the third of March. They are doing it at one of the larger hospitals, if it is what they think they will operate. If it all goes well blood pressure finally undercontrol and if not dyslais which this ckd is leading toward. I am selfish though I also hope it fixes the ed, not say my fingers and tongue don't have fun they do, but hey man to feel like a man again but not getting hopes up to high but there is hope. Enjoy today while every thing works at least partily after all tomorrow it might be broke.

Well, going get up from here for a while and go to the market and by a fat pig or something for dinner tonight and some paper for later when we got wipe. Do not know what I want to get for dinner but since she is working and I am home I can cook a pretty good meal now and then. So let it be tonight who knows play the cards right and desert my have a special touch and be served with a room of candles and mirrors. Looked in a mirror forget the room full that was scary enough, might cause a person to lose supper.

Well, I hope everyone is off to good start this week and have scored at least once. Still a lot of week left and remeber in baseball 300 is a pretty good batting average but 500 and better is better. But in golf remember it is the quality not the quanity of strokes that really count so sometimes less is better. Well never mind this I will for I have no mind and it doesn't matter.

I hope everyone is having a great day and this coming week is even better. I hope to do something old or something new or anything inbetween as long as it is sweet and clean.

YOU KNOW I COMPLAINED ABOUT NO RECIPACATION THE LAST COUPLE OF BLOGS. WELL, MAYBE IT HAS BEEN FOR THE BETTER. I HAVE HAD A FEW HEALTH PROBLEMS AND TRY TO SAY THEY DON'T MAKE ANY DIFFERENCE OR ETC... ETC.... BUT I REALITY THEY DO. YOU SEE I HAVE A DEFIBULATOR AND I HAVE JUST TRIED JOKING IT OFF. I HAVE HAD FOR ABOUT 2 YEARS FOR 18 MONTHS NO SERIOUS EPISODES.

WELL, I HAD A STRANGE PAIN BUT NOT HAVING THE INCOME TO CHECK ON THINGS IGNORED THE PROBLEM. YESTERDAY I HAD A CHECK UP AND SURE ENOUGH SOME SUBSTANTIAL CHANGES. I DID HAVE A BUZZ WHEN I THOUGHT I MIGHT OF GOT ONE AND DID NOT REALIZE I HAD BE ZAPPED PRIOR. THEY TELL ME THIS THING HAS QUITE A PUNCH FOR INSTANCE THEY SAID IT SAVED MY LIFE 2X ON SEPT 21 AND ONCE BEFORE THAT. EVERYTHING ELSE SEEMS SMALL IN COMPARISON. I AM GLAD TO BE HERE TODAY. IF I AM NOT HERE ANY MORE WELL THANKS FOR THE VISITS BUT I HOPE I GET TO SAY HELLO AND THANK YOU MANY MORE TIMES. ENJOY LIFE, MAKE GOOD LOVE, BUT REMEMBER TO LOVE THYSELF WHILE HERE.

I am a pest I guess. I can not go to bed and lay on my own side with out playiing with something. I admit I play with myself if I am alone. Hoping that some magic with bring the magic of life into the thing. However, if I am in bed with a lady and other folks sorry play pretty damn straight she is my target. I try not to but damn it is there and so warm and available.


well last night it was going pretty smoothly but more seemed needed. I reached for a little slim toy that vibrates like a small earthquake. It was not to long perfore it was hitting home Gradually increasing the speed and intensity her body shuttered and quivered and she moaned for more. She came lake health fall juicy and warm.

This was excitiing me hoping for more. I gave her a bit heaven now my turn so I hoped still eager licking my lips for more. Maybe my turn she would turn her expertise and bring me out of my hell and into a bit of heaven too. I have been sticking through this now going on 2 years not being able to relieve the groin. But all to my surprise the bliss did not last. Why do have to this on night before I work she asked? To her I gave the answer on those other nights I have tried too.

And with that I rolled over because I knew for the night it was.

I am going to play around and lose what I have. She does not play and lately that means with anyone it seems. It was first my thought it is all my fault because of the health issues. However, I still have he urge to play and explore and probably more so than ever since my sexual organ is sort of out a key her lately.

When I can get her in the right mood now then I can drive her up the walls. She does not orgasim quite as often but I can usually put her in orbit at least one or two times in a night when I get her to the sheets. She says though I try to often and darn I do not know what the magic number or times should be.I am guessing I should have another babe or three to get me an average.

I am not going to deny it I Love making Love and I love it most when the lady has a good orgasm. I love sweet warm smelling come and want to bring her around at least a couple of times. However, I want to lose my load every now and then and it has been so long. I use to be able to make myself come handly if you catch the drift. Diabetes and heart problem have cause nerves not to be as sensitive as before and it takes a bite more a nibble now and then helps things. But hell she has hers and why should wwe continue just because I am having a bit of difficulty might the ending be pleasing for her too.

She claimed to like oral when we got together then why can I count the times in 8 years on one hand. Guarante you she needs both hands to count the times I am willing per month at a minimum. I am getting more interested in other woman and that bothers me. However, I do not live off bread alone. If there are women close to me who need to be satisfied by more than a bump and hump I like to her from them. Those that are willing to share in caring if you know what I mean. Hoping for a mature lady that wants and knows how. I wish I had the means to treat a lady with all life desires because I am looking to be in love with one more woman the rest of my life who would be in love with me and want to be loved openely and regularly.

I guess it was one of those nights. Now like I said before I am not able to get the job done as before. However, I did not say that in some ways I might have become better. I try to listen to my lady and understand her needs. I do not want her begging and pleading please. I want her happy and when she says she can't get comfortable I want her to know these are some of most loving and sensitive arms and hands she has ever met.

I rub and caress from her toes to goodnes knows to find the key that will allow her to unwind. Take for instance her head fell upon my shoulder last night and her breast lay there so sweet and naked on my chest. I was worried for its welfare and health and gently covered it with my hand. Then I thought maybe it is tension that is causing it to need attention. I then took a well trained tongue and gave that nipple a great massage. It got so excited and happy about the job it invited its neighbor over for some of the same.

My hands slid down into the valley of moistness between her legs. It was moaning and pulsating good vibrations. I explored and petted my woman in every fashion she chose till her panties fell from her hips exposing those beautifl lips. My penis was not up for such a task. Well, I ain't the Lone Ranger so I need no mask..Ws I grabbed a thigh and way up high and down I went for tasteful lick. I found the little citoris right before my very tongue and that is when her trip to heaven begun.

I hope that soon my needs are met but as long as met hers I am content. Can't hardly wait for tonight hope to find again hot and tight Looking forward to her cream on my tongue and maybe mine on hers. I think that maybe thins can get better as lick this problem over.

Procrastination can be harmful. Yes, I am a procrastinator that almost lost all my sex life trying to be the good husband. For which in most part I do not regret. I had a marriage that expand a period of 31 years. Two lovely children and fine adults have come that marriage.

I loved and still love the lady I married. I just could not overcome her health and mental problems that put is a both through years of habitation and existing. The love of a couple grew apart day after day. I had and have my own health problems which leave me a bit incapacitated even now. I can not perform some of the simplist little task of love making I once could.

I will not mention names for by chance some one I know has found this site. I am hoping in the long run to find answers though. I left this woman whom has since passed on. I never told her how much I truly loved her, but it is more than she would have ever known. She for thirty plus years was not only my wife but my life. Since that time 8 years have past.

The lady I am with there is no way I can begin to describe. We are not a Hollywood pretty couple, but she is beautiful to me. We both had gone years through lives of no love now I did not say no sex no love believe me there is a difference. However, I had not had the sex she offered me or anything even as close that was as wonderful. I had a hard time maintaining an errection do to lack of previous activity and years of highblood pressure. But for the dfirst 2 to 3 years we shook the house 3-5 times a week and several times each time, it was surreal.

However, with life changes for her and decreasing health changes for me thins have changed. She once told me my first wife had to be crazy not to have liked sex with me. I was lucky to get it every 6 months. However, as of today physical play has not touched the mat in 14 months. Oh, I have given her oral stimulation that has peaked on the siesmic charts and she says put her in heaven. I am wanting the same relief and can not seem to get up to point of solving this problem. I am looking over toward the person who said about it being crazy and thinking am I or you. I just wish now and then she would take matters into her own hands if you know what I mean and reciprocate with me. If she really enjoyed recieving all I can say if she'd be a little giving it is only gonna get better.

I regret getting ill. I hate not being as active and abled to do as I was. However, I regret not being able to do what I can by holdin me back. I may not be in this world much longer. However, I want to love the one I am in love with often, do what I can for them when I am able, but most of all make them happy always with no regrets. Men love your woman with all your heart, and woman so for your man. Take care of each others needs for what you are missing so are they. What you usually need they do too but often do not know how to ask.

Be kind with those you love. Take your time to love well. It is not what you have in wealth that make you truly happy, but that you will find in love and health. I have not been able to truly hold a full time job in a couple of years and I am as broke as joke. However, I do love the lady I long for, I love my children and I have good friends. My mission is simple to be what I can be but happy first and most of all.