i wait for it, anxiously, desperately, watching as it comes closer and closer.

Your body tenses, Your hand stroking and sliding and i get wet at the slick sounds it makes.

i watch avidly, Your cock growing larger and longer and harder, and i can't decide which way i'd rather have Your cum, in me or on me.

You've taken the decision out of my hands, and move my head into the position You want it, keeping it there with Your grip.

i look away from Your cock, look into Your eyes, and ask for Your cum.

"Please, Sir, please cum for me. i want to taste it, please, please let me taste it," i beg, squirming slightly, my hands sliding up Your thighs to stroke Your balls.

You stroke harder, faster, and i see Your belly tense, Your chest flush, and Your cock jerk before the wet, sticky strands of cum land on my face.

my mouth is open, waiting, and some of it lands there. You pull my mouth onto Your cock, letting me taste the rest of it.

i love it. Love You. Love Your pearls on my skin.

Sexy Escapades: Journal Entry #1
written 12/20/12 12:00pm

Last night we went to a swingers event. We’re enacting our options more and more, and searching for ways to make them happen. We went to a bar, our very first time in one (that wasn’t attached to a restaurant), and soon were part of a sizable crowd.

It was mostly people watching until the very end (the very end being the latter 2 hours of a 6 hour event). There were lots of friendly folks, but mostly we were in the background. We are the newbies again, which is an odd feeling. We don’t know anyone yet. It’s a precarious and somewhat thrilling process, though i still cling to MDR like a limpet.

At the end there…well. There’s a back patio attached to the bar, and much fun was had back there. We got to watch a couple of women go at it, a seriously talented striptease, and get a little frisky with each other. Just before leaving, i got a very lovely goodbye kiss from a woman, along with her hand gripping my pussy (outside my panties) to see how soaked i was.

It was thrilling. i loved watching. i loved being watched. Really loved being watched. It embarrasses the hell out of me, makes my cheeks sting with my blush, but it also turns me on incredibly. i think next time, i’ll go in an outfit more conducive to maybe dancing on that stripper pole for MDR. i might need a couple drinks for my nerves, and definitely good music for the groove, but…i’m thinking about it.

i still find it odd that i’m an exhibitionist. i never really liked to be looked at before. As i’ve accepted myself more and more…i find that it’s a really awesome thing to be. i want to be watched, and petted, and perhaps even played with. But for now, being watched…maybe some petting. i don’t know yet. We’re exploring, and fairly open to what options present themselves. It’s exciting, and we can’t wait to see what else happens!

Pronunciation: chibi = [chee-bee]; hentai = [hen (like the bird)-tie (like the article of clothing)]. Now just put it all together.

Okay, i’ve been asked this by several people now, so i figured i’d write a blog about it. A very tiny blog. Or maybe not so tiny.

Many, many moons ago, when i was but a wee girl, i started the journey of loving anime. Pretty much every show i watched was anime, with a few exceptions. That led me to manga, and fanfiction, and all sorts of lovely things like yaoi, yuri, and various sorts of ecchi.

But what does it all MEAN?! *grins* All those words that look weird and interesting and might have something to do with my name.

i’m interested in so many things, and i’m a geek. Yep, a geek. i know, it’s shocking. An anime is a Japanese cartoon. A manga is a Japanese comic book. Yaoi is explicit male/male, yuri is explicit female/female, and ecchi is sexually explicit material.

my name was chosen...awhile ago. i have issues with making up my mind, and then changing it again. Finally, i was fed up with myself and wanted to just pick a name. One that would stick, that would fit me to the proverbial “T”.

Enter in “chibihentai”. i came up with it fairly easily, for all it looks complicated. It’s two words combined.

Chibi - cute, little, childlike, innocent, adorable. All of those words fit as the meaning of “chibi” and i have this thing...i’m apparently cute. Downright adorable, in fact. It’s an odd phenomenon, because it used to be i wanted to be hot and svelte and all that jazz. But i’ve accepted the fact that i AM THE CUTE!

Hentai - pervert, weirdo. It’s Japanese slang. my mind is consistently in the gutter. Really, i’m an intensely sexual being (for all my geeky, dorky behavior), and it’s on my mind quite a bit. i’m a pervert! And given my kinky leanings, perhaps some would consider me a weirdo too, but i chose this word for the perv within.

So. chibihentai. Cute little pervert. There it is. That’s it.

...or is it? ;P

i didn't used to consider myself really pretty. It’s really been a journey of self-acceptance that led me to even feel confident enough to approach my Fiance, when we first met, let alone take many naked pictures. Being a “big” girl (round i am, tall...not so much, hehe) isn’t always easy in this world. There’s a lot of judgment and “helpful” suggestions about how i can/should/need to change. So how did i come around to become a newbie-nudes member and poster of many naked photos of myself? Well...

my Man likes porn. i also like porn. He likes to take pictures and video. i wasn’t too certain about THAT, especially with me being the “star” of the show in some of them. Most of them. i will admit that for the first few months, i’d cringe when He would want to take pictures of me, even the ones of me fully clothed.

It took a lot of trust, and willingness on my part to admit that perhaps what my eyes saw wasn’t the accurate picture. He finds me gorgeous, and i have to learn how to see myself through His eyes. Thankfully, the process of doing that involves some fun stuff (like doing sexy things whilst taking pictures/video). i’ve learned a lot though!

i’ve learned how to laugh at the silly looking pictures, of which there have been many in the search for true gems. i’ve also looked at myself...a lot. But i’ve xxxxxx myself to look at the bigger picture on this matter. Instead of looking at each individual portion of my body, inspecting for flaws, i had to shut off my inner-critic. i looked at the pictures as if they were of women i wanted to fuck (because i LOOOVE big girls!), rather than “just me”.

That led to this, here, now. my Man found the link to NN (which He’s been a member of for years now, but forgot about), and sent it to me, since we have similar tastes in porn and love to look at pervy people. i joined, obviously, but posting that first set of pictures was nervewracking. i was shaking a little, but i did it anyway.

What happened? Lots of compliments. Lots of votes. Really nice people sending me messages, commenting on my status updates, and in general making me feel welcome. This site reinforces everything my Man and i have been trying to do, helping me to see the gorgeous, sexy, beautiful woman i am. And now i have fun and play with various ways to take pictures and videos. i’m definitely excited about this new side of me, this extreme exhibitionist who wants to be seen and shown off to the world.

So, my thanks to my Love, my MDR. And my thanks to you all, people of NN, for making me feel the love and appreciation and friendship!