cowgirl's blog post

Staring at this page for what seems like an hour. They still don't know what's wrong with my hubbs. So many blood tests, scans and four procedures yet no full diagnosis. Trying to stay strong and optimistic is so fucking hard. This is absolutely heart wrenching. Another specialist tomorrow. Every day they take so much blood. He's pale one minute then flush from the pain the next. When sleeping he moans in pain. Once the pain meds start to wear off his pain is right back to extremely high. So many doctors but they have yet to figure this out. This is the begining of the 4th week now.
Forget about work. Short term disability, all set. Hard to forget about the 100+ inches of snow in three weeks time,we are doing are best with it. I don't like leaving hubbs for awhile for other stuff to get done. Doing ok but my auto pilot is exhausted.
I had no one else to share this with. I tried to keep it short. Sorry it's sad & personal.