cowgirl's blog post

Wednesday, April 1, 2015, 11:04:42 AM

This has been the hardest two months ever. I dont even know where to begin. My Hubss is still so sick. I feel so helpless. He got denied short term disability but same company approved his FMLA. Wtf?! How is that even possible. His company is furious but their hands are tied supposedly. We have appealed but they won't have a decision for 45 days. Are you fucking kidding me. Savings is exhausted and bills need to be paid. My mortgage. What the fuck. Two months pay is no joke. We are usually the ones that help extended family with out even thinking about it, but yet not even a visit from any of Hubbs five siblings never mind asking if we are doing ok, or come over for Sunday dinner. They suck.and my side of the family ha forget about them. Although my Mom has been a tremendous help.and my cousin's wife txt last night saying she ordered us an Easter dinner. I was speechless and balled my eyes out. I'm running out of private spaces to shed my tears. I try not to let my family see how I've been feeling But I'm fucking scared. My chin is constantly quivering letting me know tears can flow at any given time. I'm mostly a mess in the morning like now. Tears streaming down my face wondering how the hell are we making it thru today. Just sharing the little that I did I feel .... Idk like I'm letting them down not being a good enough mom wife and person due to failing to provide all that our family needs.
All I can do is take it day by day....
Thanks for listening/reading

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hornyman1155 on 1-Apr-15 18:51:01

My thoughts and prayers are with you .

Ho-Lee-Chit on 1-Apr-15 20:41:17

Your blog is here _specifically_ if you want to rant or rave or just get it off your chest. Its _yours_ CG. *hugs/kotc* My well wishes are with yall though I know thats not much. Dont be so hard on yourself hon. Theres only so much ya can do and Im sure youre doing that plus some. Chin up, stay strong, dont be afraid to lean on the ones who will let ya lean. You know youd do it for them. ;)

justpussyeatter on 1-Apr-15 21:13:08

Yeah I had a stroke. Lost use of leer side. It took me 6 months to get disability and it's only 1/3 of what I was making. It's so fucked up But none of my bills got lowed. Not sure what I do.

scud28stud on 13-Apr-15 3:59:47

sorry for your issues. Keep fighting though!

chimx2 on 25-Apr-15 19:38:56

Instant hard-on killer. Nevertheless, I sympathize and even though I'm a stranger, I'd definitely pitch in a few bucks, if at least to a responsible agency that doles out funds to folks like you facing a tough time. There has to be something like that out there...