d_ashley's blog post - 49 is mine!!! :))

I had to work today and so I will tomorrow and so since Ive been up since 4am grrrr and after the thunderstorms rolled through sometime about midnight or so I guess that I have had about three hours of sleep. so I'm eyeing the clock to get ready to hit the hay here as soon as possible I hope. and so I apologise for the typos galore but I must refrain from rereading so as to get this blog done and into bed.
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Im trying to think of the earliest b'day that I can remember and so I guess that I can say that it would probably be b'day number five then...as all I can remember is all the neighborhood kids sitting around the table at our house with all of us eating cake and icecream. and that is it. no remeberance of opening presents,playing with the gifts[toys was the norm] nor any of the rest of the day, just eating cake and icecream and that is all.
so I move forward to my next b'day memory and I guess that it would be b'day number thirteen and all that I can remember is the moment I saw my first motorcycle and it was a small honda90 and since we lived in the country I had the freedom to ride as I may to go and see and have fun with all my friends around the area and we would all ride together since we all had our own cycles to ride and have fun with.
so I move forward to my next b'day memory amd I guess that it would be b'day number sixteen as thats the day that I go and get my very own drivers licence. no rememberance of eating cake and icecream nor any of the rest of the day just getting the drivers license on that day is all. then I had the freedom to go and see my friends around the area and drive my self to and from school.
so I move on forward to my next b'day memory and I guess that it would be b'day number eighteen and so all I can remember is all the family and I sitting at the table at "Red Lobster" [a seafood restr.] eating cake and icecream after all the waitresses and waiters came and sang happy b'day back then that was the family tradition to all go out and eat to celebrate the b'day and back then it was popular for all the waitresses and waiters to present cake and icecream with a b'day song.
so I move forward to my next b'day memory and I guess that it would be b'day number 48 just sitting on the front porch lighting the tiki lamps relaxing while I listen to the tunes. as for that is the most recent and is still fresh in my mind. though I cannot remember a single birthday in all those years that come in between. so I have now come to realise that from the day I turned 18 and had become an adult until last year at 48 my mind draws a blank.
so I see that b'days can be best remembered if they can be associated with monumous occasions such as licenses, adulthood and ect... sortof like b'day milestones that we mark our lives with as we journey through it. soo why do I not have any memory from eighteen until now? is because through all the rest of my years since eighteen there has not been a single milestone that I have to remember. no monumous occasion to keep that day within my memory. such a sad sad thing to realise while I sit here and write this. for it says to me and I say to all of you young ppl who might read this is that to never allow your milestones of life to become lost in a blurr and make each and every one of those b'days a monumous occasion with all the wonderful thoughts of what you have achieved and also what might you have acomplished for I have none to remember for myself. but you know I have a memory of a day as far back as when I was about six months old I couldnt stand I couldnt crawl yet I could sit up and that was it so Im guessing at six months. so with that day that I know existed at such an early age with all that I saw and all that I felt and as detailed as with all my thoughts were then there is but one b'day that I wish that I could remember from all the 49 others and that is...my first on april 28 1959. and that b'day would be such an incredible memory to remember. indeed.
sorry if I rambled, or made no sense, but it felt good to share and also to return next year and reflect upon.
say goodnight dave....goodnight old guy...hey who asked you pal?? cmere I got a cake fer yoooouuuu with a bomb inside. tee,he,he.
tfvmb. 3 David.